Hello everyone, and welcome to the Diary of a Sane Black Woman. I am Marie, your host. I know I have been MIA on this podcast, and as I previously updated in the last episode, there has been a lot going on, specifically from a cyber perspective, and a lot of attacks on my network, my devices, which has made it a lot harder for me to record as regularly as I would have liked to. Even now, as I'm recording, the device that I'm using is not the typical device that I would use. And so, you know, the sound may not be as good. You might hear background noise and so forth. So please uh be patient with me. But I just really wanted to bring this to you all, you know, this episode. I think uh it's definitely time. I think the last time I posted was back on November 14th, and so I just want to touch base. Please note that I am on X, formerly known as Twitter, and I do post there regularly, so subscribe so you can keep in touch in between episodes. Please subscribe, and the handle for that is the Diary O A S B W. I'll spell it for you. That's T H E D I R E R I E O A S B W. Please be sure to subscribe to my ex page so you can keep in touch in between episodes. With that being said, what has been up? What has been going on? Again, a lot of the same things, a lot of the same common themes, but I've been standing strong and basically trying to move forward. And so, as you know, if you've been listening to this podcast, you see that I've been basically speaking about forgiveness. The last three episodes have been about forgiving those who hurt you, those who attack you, even when it's done to you on a continual basis. And so today's today's episode is really about uprooting smear campaigns and privacy breaches, and it's a confier of forgiveness, it's a forgiveness journey amid propaganda. So the tables are kind of shifting. So in the last three episodes, I was really focusing on extending forgiveness to those who have harmed me in so many different ways, and how you know, addressing how God says to forgive someone 70 times seven. And so knowing that even when someone in the midst of an attack that, you know, God asks us to forgive, even in the Our Father, it says, God, forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And so we know that if we want God to forgive us, especially if we want God to be gracious to us, we have to also be gracious to others. But again, as I've highlighted over and over, forgiveness does not mean the absence of justice, it does not mean the absence of accountability, right? Um, it's just releasing the hurt, it's releasing the harm, it's releasing it from your heart, and it's also surrendering to God, leaving it in God's hands, knowing that you've released it to the courts of heaven, knowing that God will do what he needs to do in that situation. At the same time, it also does not mean that you as an individual do not take action as it relates to the hurt or the harm, right? And what I what do I mean by that? Specifically as it relates to, you know, essentially reporting it to the authorities, documenting things that are happening, right? And so I think sometimes people think, oh yeah, you forgive, and though that means that, okay, you're not gonna report it to the police or you're not going to document it. No, it doesn't mean that I forgive you, but you know, there is something called accountability, right? And so I just want to kind of make that disclaimer as I am, you know, here and basically um recording this. And as I'm recording it, I am in a parking lot, and you know, if you do follow me on X, you'll see that I do post, like I said, real-time things. And so I have this hashtag going called I call it the parking lot mafia because essentially, as a targeted individual, people follow me everywhere, and so people will come to the parking lot, they'll have their cars on, and basically to try to spy on me, they'll drive by my car, they'll have their cars on, they'll stand idly, they'll be on their phones, basically trying to tap into my network and extract information, whatever it is that I'm doing. And so, you know, this is still going on, and you know, right now that is my reality in real life, not only on the internet, but it's on it's in real life. And I'm just saying all that to say because as I'm recording this, like there's a lot of activity around me. Okay, so let's jump into the episode, right? And so, as I've been saying, the last three episodes have been dealing about forgiveness. So if you've been here for the journey, you know that you know the last three episodes about forgiving others spoke about releasing those who hurt us, choosing peace over over bitterness, walking in obedience to God. And so today I'm changing my focus, right? So, as I said, now it's not only about forgiving others, but it's also asking others to forgive me, asking God for forgiveness, and for me to forgive myself because sometimes I think we forgive others, we ask others to forgive us, but sometimes we don't forgive ourselves too, right? We harbor whatever it is, you know, that we may have done or may not have done, you know, and we think about all of the what-ifs and and things of that nature, but you know, it's important to know that it's just as important to forgive yourself, right? If God be for you, who could be against you? The Bible says that God has removed your sins from you as far as the east is from the west. And so also it also says there is now, there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus for what we could not do in the flesh, and that we were weak, Christ came and did for us. And so we have to know that that God is forgiving us. There is a white car as I'm recording right now, standing idle right in front of my car. Basically, again, it's the stalking, it's it's nonstop, it is continuous. People continuously follow me around. There's a white car right in front of me as I am recording right now. And I'm I'm I'm gonna as I'm recording, I'm gonna I'm gonna document this. It's right in front of me. And so let's see. It's a white car. It's a white Lexus. It's a white Lexus. I won't say the license plate, just out of respect. But, you know, there's a lot of privacy violations, there's a lot of, you know, people basically following me around. She's standing right in front of my car. And, you know, that is that is the extent of the um the stalking and the harassment. That is the extent of the stalking and the harassment. There's another car right there, too. There's another car right there too. And it's like, it's continuous, it's non-stop, it's non-stop, and people continuously follow me around. They continuously follow me around. I'm over here minding my own business, and they choose to follow me around. All right, so I'm back. Where was I? So I had to actually move because there were a lot of cars congregating around me. So that is literally the story of my life as I'm trying to record this. But in any event, so here I am, you know, I'm here. I'm talking about forgiveness and how, you know, it's important not only to forgive others, but to also ask for forgiveness and also forgive yourself, right? And I think the last time, the last thing that I was saying is that God says that there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, right? So if God be for you, who could be against you? No one can condemn you if God has said He has released you from that sin, from that mistake, or whatever it is, right? You know, even God holds us accountable at the same time, right? So again, forgiveness does not mean the lack of accountability. And so today I am changing the focus, I'm turning the tables, and so I am saying humbly, I'm humbly seeking forgiveness even when, you know, I don't have the full picture, the full story, even for things that were twisted or you know, things that were completely fabricated that I haven't done, that people are saying that I done, that I've done, that I've said. And so, you know, basically painting me as this hateful and racist person, a person, you know, that is a homophobe and you know, that I that I'm you know intolerant, like I don't uh tolerate diversity, which is like could be the furthest thing from the truth, you know. You know, I am a very diverse person. I grew up in a very diverse neighborhood. I've gone to very diverse schools, I've traveled a lot, I've embraced various cultures, I love culture, I love language. You know, at one point, you know, my goal as an you know, back I think in in high school, my goal was to become a polylinguistic attorney. That was my goal. I wanted to basically learn all these languages, be fluent and and and and become an attorney. You know, I I minored in in in you know Spanish. I I've traveled, you know, to different countries. I've learned other languages in some other languages. While I'm not fluent, I'm either intermediate or I know a few phrases to greet others, and I love dance, I love culture, and so that that incorporates what I'm about. I'm someone that basically embraces culture. I'm someone that has devoted platforms to culture, you know, through sharing to sharing about culture. So whatever is being painted right now couldn't be, you know, couldn't be further from the truth. And I think that this is actually a tactic that the enemy is trying to use to obstruct the progress of the destined state, but to also obstruct the destiny that God has for me. I think that God, my destiny and my God-given purpose has to deal with dealing with a diverse group of people. You know, I believe that I've been called to the nations. You know, that's not something that I am saying. I just I truly believe that's what God is calling me to. God is calling me to a diverse group of individuals, to a diverse group of people. And so as a result, what better way for the enemy to try to obstruct that by distorting, by distorting, you know, who I am and what I truly believe. And I just want to say, as I'm saying this, this is really impromptu what I'm saying. I do have like a whole podcast uh podcast script here, but I'm right now I'm really speaking to you authentically, and I'm bet being very candid. And as God is dropping this in my spirit, I'm thinking about Paul. Paul, right? And I just want to say, even if I did say every single thing that these people are saying that I'm saying, even I, even if I was a hateful person, even if I was, even if I was, I am changing. I am repenting, right? Even if I was, I don't believe I am. And maybe some things may be out there that is saying otherwise. But even if I was, look at the story of Paul. He was persecuting Christians, he was a persecutor of Christians, and then God convicted him, right? Paul had an experience on the road to Damascus, and God said to Paul, why are you persecuting my people? Right? This is I'm I'm paraphrasing here. But and look at how much Paul has contributed to the Christian faith, right? He was once a persecutor, then he converted as he had that experience on the roads of Damascus. And if I'm not mistaken, if I'm not mistaken, I believe Paul wrote most of the of the New Testament. Paul wrote most of the New Testament, right? So as I'm coming here before everyone and asking for forgiveness, I'm not saying that I'm complete, like I'm this, I'm completely innocent and I'm this perfect individual. Like if you've heard me speak even in my intros and me introducing this podcast and my my um ministry page, which I recently created, although you know I haven't devoted as much time because there's so much going on to it, you know, destined for greatness ministries, you'll know that I admit that I am not a perfect person. I am not a perfect individual. I am not perfect by any means. However, the majority of the things that are being said, that are being spread, that are being disseminated about me aren't true. Aren't true. They are distorted, they are distorted facts, they are misinterpreted things, and a lot of the things are also fabricated. They're not true. Even so, I'm choosing to ask for forgiveness. Even so, I'm asking for forgiveness, even for the things that were twisted or things that I've never done at all. Because one, I definitely want to clear my conscience before the Lord. Because love requires humility, and because indirect hurt is still hurtful. So I also want to extend, you know, asking for forgiveness to those that might have received a message that might have offended them, that might have felt hurt by whatever it was that they received that they thought that I said. And if I did actually say something, again, context is so important, everyone. Context is so important. Let's make sure that it was in the right context. If it was something that was, why whether it was a joke or something that was hurtful, that I at the moment at the time that I didn't think was, or, you know, maybe it was something that was said, and it wasn't meant for the consumption of the general population, right? Let's be real. All of you guys, every single person, even those that are attacking me, may at one point have said something that you may not have met for basically the general population to consume. In my situation, I am in under constant surveillance. I am being recorded, but also things are being manipulated, extracted. There's a lot of AI and bot activity. So there is a very malicious smear campaign and propaganda going on here. So, with that being said, whatever it is that came across your table, that came across your screen, whether it's your computer screen, your your mobile phone or whatever that was hateful and that you thought came from me, Marie, I am, with all my heart and all my soul, I'm asking you for you to forgive me whether I actually said that or I didn't. And so that is my first, that is my first step here. Okay? So, and I want to be clear too. I'm not asking for forgiveness because, you know, I'm thinking that, okay, this is gonna make all this go away and make the attacks stop, right? I think one thing, the one thing that's going to make the attack stop is to actually catch the perpetrators, to catch the people behind the keyboards, the computer screens that are causing harm. That is what's going to make it stop. And I think it will happen one way or another. Because in God's timing, in God's timing, justice, justice shall prevail in his timing. In his timing, right? So again, my forgiveness isn't conditional on behavior, right? It's not conditional on, okay, if I ask for forgiveness, like, okay, this will stop because, you know, actually my theory here is that a lot of people that receive like these hateful messages are now joining the network, you know, the network of people that are now harassing me, whether it's, you know, in person and doing, you know, street theater, and and I'll get into that term. Maybe I'll go through it's been a minute since I've done like a podcast about terminology. I'll go into, you know, street theater and psychological uh harassment and things like that, which they basically do because it's it it it leads to plausible deniability where you know it's someone will be like, oh, okay, you're overreacting, you're being paranoid, or this person is just doing a regular activity that any person would do. It's intentional, right? And there's a pattern behind it. And so, you know, I'm saying all this to say this is just me asking for forgiveness. I want to release myself. I want to release myself. Whether you decide to release me or not, I am asking for forgiveness. I am making that first step, and I'm releasing it to the courts of heaven, and I'm asking God to forgive me as well. Because God says when He forgives you, He forgives you. And I am not carrying this forward into 2026. I am not going to have like this dark cloud of accusation, false accusation, and things like that over my head in 2026. That is one thing that I'm leaving behind. And so I am choosing to free myself. I'm releasing these things to God. I'm releasing it in, you know, in his hands. I'm surrendering to him, and I am standing clean in my heart. And as Jeremiah 10, excuse me, as Jeremiah 1.10 says, we are called to uproot the toxic and then build and plant. And I guess since I was gonna say Jeremiah 29.11, maybe the Holy Spirit wants me to share this. Like Jeremiah 29.11 says, I know the plans that I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope. And I'm paraphrasing here. But I know that God's purpose for me is He has good intentions for me. It is not God's will for me to go through this. And if it is, I know that his grace is sufficient for me. Just like Paul had a thorn in his flesh, and he asked God multiple times, God, will you remove this thorn from my flesh? The Lord said to Paul, My grace is sufficient for you. So I am trusting in God's grace. I know that God, He is sufficient. And so I cast my cares on the Lord. I cast every attack that has been coming against me, every smear campaign. I cast it on the Lord because I know that his burden is light and his yoke is easy. And so this is not the first forgiveness post that I'm making in terms of like asking for forgiveness. So recently I actually posted a thread on X. Again, if you're not following me on X, go and subscribe or hit the follow button because I post on there regularly, sometimes in real time. And so in between podcasts, that's definitely a good place to keep in touch. I'm also on YouTube, so subscribe to my YouTube page. Although I have not posted anything recently, I'm still trying to, you know, sort out a lot of different things. Again, my entire life has been hacked, y'all. My entire life. All of my devices, you know, even regular things like your refrigerator, your thermostat, things like that, those all have been hacked. It doesn't matter where I go, there are people following me around. And it's just like it's it's it's it's relentless. In any event, so there is a thread out there on X, formerly known as Twitter. And basically, this thread is about you know asking for forgiveness, right? Now, no one has actually come to me and said, Hey Marie, did you say these things? Or hey Marie, so and so is saying that you're saying these things, and I receive this about you to my left. There is this car standing, flashing again. It it it's it's it never fails. There is always somebody following me. It doesn't matter. It's a GMC truck. A GMC truck, a gray GMC truck. In real time, I'm going to call it out. So the thread, anyway, I'm gonna continue because it's so amazing. I I think it's like to be honest, it's it's like an obsession because these people, they actually cannot stop. You know, they're like literal parasites and and and they're addicts. They they need to get their necks fixed, right? What is Marie doing now? But God is more than able. So I release that person over there to my left that has their light on, that is monitoring me right now on in that GMC truck as I'm recording this, and I'm going to continue the podcast here. So basically, no one has ever come to me directly to say, hey Marie, you know, we think that someone is attributing these hateful comments to you, like you said this, you said that, and then, or what have you, right? It's just kind of like things that are being hinted, whether it's through psychological harassment, uh subliminal messages, corrupted uh algorithms and feeds and things like that, that basically indicate what is happening. So no one has had the courage. You know what I mean? Everyone is very bold to hide behind, you know, in their cars, to hide behind a keyboard, to spread lies and to distort the truth. But no one has come to me and said, Marie, you know, we know you said this, or we're hurt that you said this. So I can't address anything directly. You know, I can't address any specifics because no one has come to me. So this is very one-sided. It's like they want to attack me, they want to paint this picture about me, right? So it's like a covert, but very open. So it's like an oxymoron, right? It's like a covert campaign, which is very open, right? And so I can't address it. I can't address it. Whether it's, you know, fake accounts, distorted clips, you know, the algorithm, bot networks, whatever it is that they're using. And then also, obviously, they're using these group chats and things like that, and they're sharing information, you know? So I can't address anything or anyone specifically because no one has come to me. But even so, I'm still addressing it generally, and I'm coming here and I'm saying, I'm saying I'm sorry. I'm asking for forgiveness and I'm saying I'm sorry. I'm sorry for anything that came across your feed, for anything that anyone said that I said that I didn't say. I'm sorry if even I'm even saying sorry for reacting to the attacks, right? Because in instances, I'm a very bold person. I'm a very quiet person, but I am a very bold person. I am a very outspoken person, and I'm not afraid. And you times that, or you add that with what God has placed in me, his spirit, because God says that he's not giving me a spirit of fear, but he's giving me a spirit of power and a sound mind. You know, you add that with what God has given me. I know that I am strong. You add that with my regular personality, with the personality and and with the Holy Spirit, because God says He's not given me a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power and a sound mind. I know. You know, I I I am bold. I am bold. And sometimes maybe I can be too bold. So God is dealing with me on that. I've gone to confession, y'all. I've I've I've asked God for forgiveness to help me with that. Because I will confront you. If if you are following me and I notice that you are following me, I will walk up to you and ask you, why are you following me? I will. And maybe sometimes I may be wrong, but honestly, I think 80 to 85% of the time I'm mostly, I'm mostly right. Because I see the patterns. So I can tell. I've become so equipped to know, like to study body language and know when someone is actually up to no good, they're following me, or whatever it is, or that they're trying to hack into my system. Not only that, it's not only me observing their behavior, but I can also see the how my device reacts, right, to their presence, right? If my device starts to act up and things like that, so I know. So I digress, right? But I digress. So I'm just saying all this to say that I'm asking for forgiveness for what people said that I said that I didn't say, for what I may have said that was taken out of context or misinterpreted, and for maybe things that I might have said once upon a time that basically was exaggerated or basically, you know, if it was insensitive, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I it was not my intent. And I mean, I can't, again, I can't address anything because no one has come to me about anything. This is just me trying to piece the things together based on the breadcrumbs that I have, right? And so, forgive me, y'all. Forgive me, forgive me. And so I, as as I'm saying this, I'm gonna go through like high-level, I'm gonna do like a recap of the thread that I did on forgiveness. And if you want more details about that specific thread, go to X. Go to my page, the Diary of a Same Black Woman. The actual handle for that page on X is T-H-E-D-I-R-E R-I-E O A-S-B-W. Okay, so that's the dire re and then O A S B W. So follow me again. I definitely post in between podcasts. I post regularly there. So in between the podcasts, especially now in this situation, that's probably the best way to keep in touch with what's going on. All right, so let's jump into the first segment or the first part of the thread that I did on X. So the first thread about forgiveness, right? And if this is about me asking for forgiveness, was an intro. So this thread basically, this thread slash episode basically was about asking for forgiveness. And I really believe that the Holy Spirit impressed upon my heart to do this, right? And so it was about asking for forgiveness, not just for what I have said in heated moments, but even for things that were completely fabricated or things that I haven't said at all, right? Because if someone out there was hurt by a lie wearing my face, that pain is real to them, right? So whatever someone has said that I said, even if I didn't say it, it's hurtful. And again, white card to my left, lights on, Lexus. I'm gonna continue to do y'all. I'm gonna continue to do this, y'all. Be patient with me. But this is in real life, R-I-L, all right? I'm documenting things as they go along, as they happen. So essentially, you know, if someone, if you are attributing something to me that is hurtful to you, even if I didn't say it, I'm saying I'm sorry. I'm saying I'm sorry. And I actually refuse to let bitterness root in me. And this is a very special journey for me, too, because right now in the Catholic calendar, they are basically in a time where they're preparing for the birth of Christ. And so that is very similar to Lent, where you know, in Lent it's all about repentance and reconciliation and things like that. And, you know, this is also a time of reconciliation and repentance. And so I think it's it's so like it's a pivotal moment, and it's for me, it correlates with what I believe that God is doing. I believe this is the work of God, this whole forgiveness thing. Forgiveness is about healing, it's about moving forward, and it's uh it's about rebuilding, right? You can't rebuild on shaky ground. You can't rebuild where there's bitterness, right? And so again, in 2026, I refuse to to to to continue, you know, to live under this this shadow of of guilt, of, you know, slander, of false accusations. Okay? So Ephesians. Right? So it's about uprooting bitterness, uprooting, you know, anything that might be hurtful, right? Ephesians 4, 31 to 32 says, let all bitterness be put away. Forgive one forgiving one another as Christ forgave you. Colossians 3.13 says, bear with one another and forgive whatever grievance. Forgiveness releases me first, it releases you to God's justice, and then it opens the door for healing. If you're ever ready. And so to recap the actual thread, and this again, this is like a high-level summary. I'm gonna repeat, I'm gonna read it now. And this is the confidor thread. I confess to Almighty God and to you, my brothers and sisters, that I have greatly sinned in my thoughts, in my words, in what I have done, in what I have failed to do, through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault, I asked blessed Mary, the angels, saints, and all of you to pray for me. Then I extended the forgiveness and asked for it from anyone hurt by anything attributed to me, whether real, out of context, twisted, edited, or just plain old fabricated. I also in that thread I named communities I sense may have felt pain. First and foremost, I address the foundational black Americans, also known as FBA, and some also identify as EDOS. And so I actually shared my deepest honor for their sacrifices because I believe that the foundational black Americans have significantly contributed to the United States, its culture, and just a lot of things. They paved the way for anyone or anything that I want to say identifies as a minority, right? If you identify as a minority in any way, shape, or form, the foundational black Americans have paved the way for you. They have paved the way for you. I am an immigrant, I'm an I am a Haitian immigrant from the Caribbean. And a lot of the liberties that I have today in the United States, I have because of the foundational black Americans. I have because of the foundational Americans. Anything that I'm benefiting from today in the United States, right? In the US. Anything that I'm betting benefiting from in the US, I attribute to the contributions and the fight that the foundational black Americans have. And so I respect them. And so anything that was twisted or said that I said that I didn't say, y'all, I'm sorry if if if you know you received anything or anything that was miscontruded, no. I you are my brothers and sisters. I recognize you as my fellow brothers and sisters, and I have nothing but respect for y'all. And so forgive me if anything came across your screen that was attributed to me. And if I did say anything that was hurtful in any way, whether it was just a joke or what have you, or something that I said during a time where I was maybe not mature enough to clearly understand, or something that might have been birthed out of influential like things from my environment. I'm sorry, y'all. I'm sorry. Forgive me, but again, I can't address any specifics because I don't know what is being said that I said. I can't address the specifics. And so the next the next group that I want to address is my continental African, Caribbean, and global diaspora family. Forgive me in the way that I say diaspora. I'm saying it like like the French or Creole way, diaspora or diaspora, right? So as an immigrant, again, as I mentioned, I am a Haitian immigrant. I wasn't born here, I did grow up here. So obviously, any immigrant, I'm I I love immigrants, right? I and even if I wasn't an immigrant, like the US as a country is an immigrant country. Everyone here is not native to the US. Everyone came from somewhere else. So how can I be against immigrants? So again, if there was any propaganda or anything that was twisted that made me seem like that I wasn't for my own people, I'm sorry. Forgive me, um, accept my apology. Reach out to me. Like, if there's something that said that was said that I said, please reach out. Like I can say, I'll be like, okay, I said this, or no, I didn't. Or, you know, it was taken out of context or what have you. And let it be a teachable moment as opposed to something that where you're actually using it to build more division. The next community that I want to address is the Asian community. And that could either be, you know, whether you are a Southeast Asian or what have you, whatever, you know, specific ethnic background that you identify with. Just generic uh generally speaking, I'm saying I'm sorry. If any moment landed wrong, I'm sorry. If anything, any comment attributed to me that said that I said something, I'm sorry. There's a lot of things that I didn't say, like maybe someone on TV said it, and whatever's because I feel like there's a lot of recording going on. Or if I watched someone, whether it was through streaming and the person said something hateful, and now it's attributed to me saying it. Like there's so much going on with this thing, and there's also a lot of fabrication, a lot of distortion. But look, I'm sorry, y'all. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I don't know how much sorry I can say. And I don't know how to fully apologize without having the full picture of what is being attributed to me, right? And maybe I might have said something, right, that was insensitive or at any point in time. And maybe I have said something because it was something that had to do with a belief that I had at one point in time or or specific situation, but I'm not like a blanketed type of person where I basically how can I say it? Like I say that this group, every person in that group is this way. I'm not like that. Again, I grew up in a very diverse neighborhood. I went to diverse schools. I went to schools with every ethnic background that you can think of. I've worked, all the companies that I've worked at have been very diverse companies. And so I've worked with so many different people. And I must say, throughout my life and my career, Asians, and I say this very like humbly, sincerely, I'm being very sincere. Asians that have that I have come across, that I have crossed paths with have been very helpful, very helpful people in various moments of my life. So there's no way that I could be hateful towards a community that's been helpful to me. Now, maybe at times I might have called out something that I might have seen, because look, in every community, there's gonna be, you know, someone or something that's done that might not resonate with you and you might call it out. Does that mean that you're saying that the entire community is that way? No. But you might call something out. But if I call something out, or if I express, how can I say, a disagreement with something or how something is done, it doesn't mean that I'm saying that everyone in that group or that community is that way. So again, I'm I'm being very generic here because look, again, no one has come to me, no one has been bold enough to come and say, hey, Marie, we saw, we got this message, and you know, we saw that you said these things, so I can't address it specifically. But again, my DMs are open. Um, you know, you can you can comment on on the on this. I don't know if the podcast has a place to comment. I think it does. Or like on X, on the actual thread, you can comment on the thread. I don't currently have it pinned. I think I'm going to pin it because I have something else pinned right now. But I'm going to pin it so that anyone that comes to the X page, that will be the first thing that you see. So if you want to comment on that, comment on it. Okay. The next community that I addressed in the thread was the Hispanic and Latino community. Again, I'm Haitian. And technically speaking, and some might not agree with this. Technically speaking, Haitians are Hispanic and Latino. We are literally Haitians. We are from the island of Hispaniola. Hispanic Hispaniola. Okay? We're literally Hispanic. Latino. Latino refers to any group of people that basically has an ethnic background stemming from Latin roots, Latin, which are languages that include French, Spanish, Italian, Haitians speak French, they speak Creole, which is at one point was considered a dialect of French, but now it's actually an official language. We are more alike than different. And even his father, like his last name is a Spanish last name. So like, I mean, y'all, we are the same people, but there's often it's easier to divide people and than to try to bring people together. Now, I must say again, like I'm a very outspoken person. Might I have said things at one point that called out certain things or patterns that I that I notice in certain communities or certain groups within the Hispanic or Latino community? Probably. I know I've been outspoken about the DR and Haitian relations for sure. Because there were there there has been a lot of things that have happened that, you know, that I've been even on like, you know, my former social media that I've you know come up and stepped up to defend Haitians or to call for for peace. And I've I've I haven't done that in isolation or like it's the Haitians against the Dominicans. It's really been me collaboratively working with other Dominicans, like, you know, being activists. And a lot of these things have been sponsored by Dominicans that were actually for more peace and unity. And so again, I'm not speaking, I'm not coming from a paid uh space of division or a space of saying, you know, this group is wrong or what have you. I'm coming from a space of unity. I think that we're more alike than different. I've I've dedicated platforms to basically honoring the Hispanic and Latino culture. So there's no way that I could be against the Hispanics, uh, Latinos or immigration or anything like that. And one thing that I've been seeing in my feed, it's like, you know, ice, like it's just like frozen and things like that. So I don't know if that is being attributed to me or whatever, but it's it's it's crazy, y'all. It's not true. And whatever it is that you're seeing, if you if you're bold enough, if you have courage, reach out. Reach out, tell me, hey, I'm I'm I'm I'm offended that you said this. And I'll say, hey, you know what? I did say that. I'm sorry. Or this was taken out of context, or I didn't say that. That was the TV, or that was uh somebody that was I was streaming that said that. And because I, again, I'm a very diverse person, I'm open-minded, although the people might try to portray me as someone that's not. I watch different things, and just because I watch different things, it doesn't mean that I subscribe to what they're saying. I like to hear what other people are saying, I like to see where their mindset is. I've listened to people that spoken against my ethnicity, that's spoken against my original nationality. Again, I'm born, I was born in Haiti, but I'm like, I want to hear what they have to say. Not only to understand their perspective, but hey, if someone has ill like feelings about me or like, I want to know, you know, I want to know. So not only to be careful, but also to kind of sometimes it's good to kind of see and try to understand things from that other person's perspective to see, okay, exactly what what's their grievance? What's their grievance? Okay, so the next again, check out the thread, right? I'm just going through and I'm paraphrasing here, and I'm also kind of speaking impromptu. Some of the things that I'm saying here is not said on the thread. So, like, you know, I encourage you to go to the thread and also review it, comment, DM me. The white communities was the other group that I addressed, and it was also very generic. I don't know what's being said that I said, if my words were manipulated or implied for hate, you know, that is not coming from me. That is not my intention. I'm not a hateful person. I'm a very diverse person, but I'm also outspoken. If I had said something in the past that was objecting anything, whether it was something that was, you know, done that I thought wasn't was hateful or whatever, you know, maybe I might have addressed that. I I don't know, but I can't speak to it because I don't know what said what was said. And if it was something that I didn't say that someone's attributing to me because someone else said it and they're attributing it to me, you know, I can't address that either because I don't know what it is. But I I I I'm I'm also extending, you know, my apology and saying I'm sorry if anything came across your screen, your devices, that basically said that I said something hateful towards you. And I also want to acknowledge that I I mentioned this about the Asian community, but a lot of things that I've experienced in life in terms of you know, people helping me. There's something that I've spoken about. I've spoken about destiny helpers. Some of the people that's helped me the most in terms of destiny helpers have been from the white community. So again, how could I be against someone that is actually helpful to me? And I'm I'm not someone that paints everyone from a certain community the same way just because there might be some bad apples, right? Every community, every every ethnic background, every ethnic group has bad apples, right? And so if at any point I highlighted something that maybe someone from that background may have done, it doesn't mean I'm attributing it to the entire race. So again, I I I I I don't know what else to say beyond that because I don't know the specifics. LGBT LGBTQ plus community is the next community that I want to address. I don't have anything about against the LGD LGBTQ community. I don't know what has been said that I said. I am not here to judge anyone what they choose to do about their sexual preferences or anything like that. I've never been, I've never been that. So I I don't know where this is coming from. Again, I truly believe this is like a distortion of things that my eye, you know, that I may have said that may have been taken out of context, or things that I may not have said, or things that I may have watched that people are now attributing to okay, things that I've said. Like if I've if I watch something, right? Network, or again, someone that streamed something and they said something hateful, but I didn't say that, but now they're attributing it to okay, she said this, or because she watched this, that means that she subscribes to that, you know, idea, ideology, or whatever. No. With that being said, I do still hold to what the Bible says. You know, so while I'm not judging, but you know, I I also want to make sure that I am in alignment with what the word of God says. But even so, I think that God calls us to unity in Christ. So that is the first thing. Everything outside of that, that is between you and God and not me. It's not me to say anything. And there are algorithms out there, there are scripts, code, if then things that are being run that if I use the word transformation automatically, it triggers hateful things. It triggers hateful things and makes it seem like I'm constantly talking about LG LGBTQ or people transitioning, which is not true. I'm a change manager, I deal with digital transformation, organizational change and just and organizational transformation. So I'm gonna talk about transformation, but you know what happens every time I use that word because of the malicious code that's being used, they try to trigger things and say that okay, it makes it seem like I'm somewhat obsessed with people's being, you know, transitioning or whatever it is that that that's happening. It's not true. It's not true, it's a hoax. It's a hoax, it's a hoax. And yeah. So but if I have at any point said something that was hurtful, any comment, look, y'all, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Forgive me. And DM me, y'all. If if if if you're truly hurt, if I've said something or something was attributed to me that I said something that I didn't, reach out. Reach out. Again, as I said before, I come from a very diverse upbringing. I love cultures, I love people, I'm not prejudiced, and I think this whole experience is a teachable moment for me. And so sometimes we have blind spots. So if there's anything that I have done or said that may have portrayed me as someone that is hateful, racist, or prejudice, please let me know because I cannot grow or learn from this if you don't tell me. Like I I I'm just getting a lot of hate and a lot of things and being attacked, and I don't even know what I did or said. And so I can't learn or change if I don't know what I did or what I said, right? So it's all about constructive criticism and calling people in versus calling people out, right? And you know, what is the motive? What is the objective? Is your objective to cause hurt, to harm, or is your objective to help that person grow, right? Because if you're calling someone a racist or whatever it is that you're calling them, and then you're basically turning around and doing the same thing, you're inflicting pain, you're targeting them, you know, you're just as bad, or even worse. Okay? So anyway, check out the thread on X. It's the diary of a same black woman. And again, the the handle for the X AKA Twitter page is the T-H-E Dire D I R E R I E O A S B W. So the diary O A S B W. Did I get that right? It's T-H-E-D-I-R-E R-I-E-O-A-S-B-W. Again, T H E D I R E R I E O A S B W. So that's the handle for the diary of a same black woman on X. All right. And so in closing, I want to talk about the ongoing reality, right? I want to talk about the first segment was about uprooting, right? Asking for forgiveness, removing like this black shadow of, you know, or black fog of hate, you know. But now we want to talk about ongoing, the ongoing reality, accountability and rebuilding. And so I just want to say this plainly, right? Grace is often misunderstood, right? So I want to say that my choice to forgive, to seek forgiveness, and to release bitterness does not remove accountability, right? And I've said this over and over again, right? I said it in the beginning of this recording, and I've said this also in previous podcasts and posts. Forgiving does not mean I stop documenting it. Doesn't mean that I stopped documenting people following me around, people attacking me, documenting the smear campaign, the misinformation, or serious privacy violations, right? Privacy violations like intimate details being shared without my consent, right? There's a lot of things that are happening. Now, it what it does mean, it means that it does not mean that. So what it does mean is that I continue to report violations to platforms or authorities when needed, right? I'm still forgiving. Like I don't, I don't hate you or I'm not harboring harboring any feelings, any ill feelings towards you. But what I am doing is that I am documenting and reporting it to protect myself. As I'm recording here, there's like a security guy flashing his thing. I don't know why. I I I'm not really sure what's going on, but it is what it is. It doesn't mean that I'm lowering my boundaries or, you know, I'm allowing the continued access to poison my peace and my space, right? So you can forgive someone and still have boundaries. You can forgive someone and still hold them accountable. So forgiveness and accountability are not enemies. As the Bible shows us, God forgives, but he also judges righteously. Joseph forgave his brothers, but he still tested them and protected himself. Jesus said, Forgive them while hanging on the cross. Yet he also overturned tables when truth and justice demanded it. So yes, I released a hurt and continuous attacks from my heart, and I truly pray for the healing of whoever is partaking in this. But I also protect mine fiercely. I document, I report, I block, I speak, because self-respect is not pride. Protecting your peace is not unforgiveness, and silence in the face of ongoing harm is not humility. So today I'm uprooting lies with truth and light, and rebuilding on solid ground, which is faith, wisdom, community, unapologetic boundaries. Psalm 37, 5 through 6 says, Commit your way to the Lord, trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light and your justice as the noonday sun. And so I am trusting in him. I'm walking free, and I'm still standing, shameless, forgiven, protected, and whole. And so if you're on this journey too, if you're forgiving while still holding boundaries, know your scene. You're strong and you're obedient. Share below if something resonated with you. Again, I'm calling you guys in and not out. I'm asking for forgiveness. Again, I can't truly remedy this if I don't know exactly what the issue is or what was said that might have been hurtful. Feel free to comment or, you know, private message me and comment a testimony of release with protection or whatever it is. Again, this is the diarie of a same black woman. This is season two, episode nine. We made it to episode nine, y'all. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting or excusing harm, it means freedom with wisdom. And so in closing, I ask, Lord, have mercy. Christ have mercy. Thank you for listening. Please subscribe, share if this blessed you, and until the next episode, and we will keep building stronger, wiser together. Peace and blessings, family. Thank you for listening to the diary of a sane black woman.