Hello everyone. Welcome to the Diary of a Same Black Woman. I'm Marie, your host. Welcome back. I know I've been away for a couple of weeks. Um, I had some very important things to take care of. I had some very important people that I needed to spend some time with. And so I took that some time off just to take care of that. But in the interim, life has been lifing. You know, the battle doesn't stop just because I'm not here speaking to you all or recording or providing you updates, right? I'm still being targeted. The attacks are still coming. And so I wanted to use today's episode as a reflection on some of the things, not everything, right? Um, it's always hard to include everything in one episode, but to include some of the things that I've actually been experiencing. And the title, or I would rather say the scripture that I want to focus on today is the scripture that talks about the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. And but God actually comes to give life and life more abundantly. And so while the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy, I am choosing the life, the abundant life that God is offering me and has already given me, right? Because we have everything in all spiritual blessings in Christ Jesus, right? Before even the foundation of the world. So we have these things. It's in us, we just need to know how to tap into it. And so looking at the scripture from John 10, 10, it says that the thief comes only, right? Only, the word is only keyword. The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come that they may have life and have it to the full. So it may just be neighbors that are trying to record what I'm saying as I'm speaking to you and recording. I just want to make sure that I am documenting things as they are happening, real time, in real time. A lot has been happening even as I was preparing, you know, how I was going to speak about my experiences over the past few weeks and just how I've been feeling. Anything from, you know, people coming outside strategically, people trying to crash my system, cars parking outside, so forth and so on, which I'll go into a little bit more when it gets to that part. So just as a reflection, you know, this verse is a very key verse to this episode. And it's my reality, and you know, it's actually what I'm facing today. And I, you know, it's not diluted, you know, I'm trying to be as sincere and candid as possible. You know, if you've ever felt targeted, if you've ever felt tracked or spiritually sabotaged or sabotaged in your natural life, you know, this is for you. For those who want to learn more about what it's like to be a targeted individual, you know, this is also a good episode to listen to. I've lived through, you know, everything that I'm speaking about. I've experienced this scripture, especially the first half of the scripture about how the enemy comes to kill, still, and destroy. So if the enemy is attacking you in your life, they're not there to help you or to make your life better. They're they're there. The enemy is here or there to make your life a living hell by any means necessary. And by any means necessary means through technology, through spiritual sabotage, whether it's curses, hexes, incantations, ill-spoken words, whatever it is that they're using, rituals, sacrifices, whatever it is that they may be using basically to destroy your life, uh, collaborating with others to sabotage you digitally through technological warfare and attacks, spying on you, so forth and so on, reporting back to individuals, and so forth and so on. And so there's a lot of people that are basically, I would say, accessory to what's happening. They may not be the person that actually launched the initial attack, but they are definitely well aware of what's going on, and they are being used, and they are willingly being used to actually facilitate, you know, the the stalking, the hacking, the data leakage, and whatever else, you know, is actually happening. And so I'm here to say I'm still here, I'm still standing, I'm still sane in my right mind, regardless of all of the tactics, the psychological warfare that has been launched against me to try to drive me crazy, to try to embarrass me, to try to destabilize me. I am still here by the grace of God. And so I thank God. I thank him for his grace, his mercy. That is new every morning. I thank him so much for that. I thank God, I thank God, and I thank God. I can't thank God enough because I am still here because of his grace and his mercy. And so I just want to take a look now into the first aspect of the scripture that I want to look at at is the enemy's blueprint. And so the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. And that's across every domain, right? It doesn't matter what it is, the enemy wants it, the enemy doesn't just want your soul, the enemy wants your livelihood, the enemy wants your joy, your peace, your privacy, your reputation, your harvest, your opportunities, your your money, your finances, whatever it is, however, whatever it can use to basically try to destroy you. So whatever and however the enemy will try to use tactics, individuals, strategies to destroy you. And so when spiritual attacks don't work, the enemy will then try to use human beings to attack you. When humans don't work, they use technology. And oftentimes, especially in my situation, all three is being used at once, right? Let's use technology to run a smear campaign. Let's use technology to try to ruin her relationships. Let's use technology to try to, you know, destroy opportunities. Let's use technology to try to psychologically harass her and destabilize her. And so that is what is happening. Let's use technology to spy on her to know what she's doing, like her next move, so that they can basically try to destroy that. And so, just a few examples of exactly what I'm talking about, right? Last week, I was following up with an individual regarding something that was actually very important to me. And I actually didn't leave a message, but the person called me back and they called me back, and they were like, Oh, I was a little confused when I got the call because on the other end, the person did not see my name. They saw a business name. And I'm not gonna say the business name here, I'll just leave it at just a business name. And it was interesting that the person was seeing that on their end. And I know that I want to say maybe earlier that week I had issues with my phone. Like I wasn't even getting a dial tone. So, first they tried to sabotage my phone where I wasn't able to actually use it. And then finally, when I got it to work, it was showing up as some uh business, right? So this was just an attempt to basically cause me, to block me, to sabotage opportunities, and to defame me. And so that's just one example. And I also want to highlight here, and I'll probably go into it later as well, that these attacks are not just external attacks. And when I say external, I mean people that don't know you well, right? So external could be neighbors because you know, unless you have a close relationship with that person, they're still external parties or strangers. These attacks are also internal, right? So people that you may think you have a close relationship with or that you probably should have a close relationship with due to the dynamics of your relationship. And so you would consider them as someone that is in your internal relationship, right? And or an internal relationship or internal court, as they use in a Bible, because you have you know different courts. So with that being said, within that, right, within like people that you know that are part of the internal courts, you also have service providers, right? Service providers, whether that's your internet provider, your telephone company, your software provider, you know, your antivirus software provider, whomever, right? So those are also internal, right? Because they're they're part of your team. They should be part of your team, they should be helping protect you, they should be, you know, helping basically defend you from like these attacks. And what I've witnessed, not just over the past few months, but I would say over the past year and a half to two years, that there has been a lot of corruption and compromise and internally from certain service providers where they are actually also launching attacks against me as a targeted individual. So instead of helping me, they're actually helping facilitate these attacks. And I'll leave it at that for now. And I say for now because there will be a time when I come and I speak about it in more depth. But, you know, I've also noticed that and I've been experiencing that where, you know, they'll know and they'll see signs of what's happening, but then they'll stay quiet about it, which is just as bad as participating, or they'll actually help launch attacks against, you know, the individual in this case, which is, you know, who is me, right? I'm I'm the targeted individual in this case. So the other example of like different tactics um used by the enemy to come kill and destroy, I can give you a perfect example of neighbors, uh, especially my neighbor upstairs. Whenever I turn on my technology, regardless of where I'm sitting, he tends to move to wherever I'm sitting. And I know that is a strategy to probably try to, whatever it is that he's using to um surveil me technologically, that probably gives him more proximity to my device so that he can extract whatever he's trying to extract, manipulate whatever he's trying to manipulate. And so I notice that. Like I'll hear his footsteps, he'll move. And then not only that, but I sometimes can feel the technology, the the waves that is, you know, that are coming from the technology or whatever it is that he's using. I can sometimes feel it, so I know. And these are also spiritual attacks too. So it's not just technological attacks, these are spiritual attacks because literally when I go to sleep, and I think I've mentioned this on a few of my episodes, I could literally hear certain like a rhythmic footstep above my head. If I change direction and I sleep in a different direction, I can still hear it. And you know, I've seen things in the spiritual realm that basically confirms that are there are things that are being done spiritually when I go to sleep. or whatever it is that I'm saying, they go and run water. They try to cancel my prayer. And what I always say is, especially when I'm saying, cast into hell Satan, and all the evil powers that roam around the earth, you know. So if you're not an evil power, if you're not, you know, on that side, why do you need to run water after I say cast into hell Satan? Why do you need to do that? So for me, that's kind of like, oh, that's a red flag, right? If I'm saying cast into hell, Satan, and all the evil spirits that, you know, roam around the earth, you know, seeking souls to devour or whatever, and you're running water right after I say this prayer, or what right after I pray that prayer, why are you so afraid of that prayer? If you're not on the, you know, on that side. Also, any prayer, not just that prayer, anything that I pray, they run water. Uh that's a means to cancel my prayer. Initially, when I first, when I first moved here, they used to run the Incorator, I think it's called. It's like the garbage disposal. I think that that's like, you know, I think they have those prayer bowls where you can it's basically like a send back to sender kind of thing. It it the pro it makes a sound. I don't use I don't use those bowls, but I know of them. I've seen people use them online, so I think it's it's a similar, it's kind of like a similar strategy, but they haven't really used, you know, the garbage disposal. They haven't run it as much. It's more so running water. They run water a lot whenever I pray after I take a bath. It's really strange. Every time I go into the bathroom, they go into the bathroom too. It's pretty creepy. And I I I think, you know, it's it's not one thing that's happening. Um, it's a lot of different things happening happening at once when I go into the bathroom. They are monitoring me technologically. I don't know what they're they're they're recording, what they're doing, what it is, what data they're grabbing while I'm in the bathroom, but they do monitor me when I go into the bathroom. Sometimes they come outside, and you know, I use the bathroom like everyone else. They monitor me. That's supposed to be a very private and intimate time, but whenever I go into the bathroom, they're there, especially when I go to take a shower, and you know, they hover above me, and then right after, right after I take a bath, they run the water again to try to cancel whatever it is that they're trying to cancel. And that's fine. That is quite fine, but I'm here to say that that happens. And, you know, so that's some of the things that happen that happens. Drones overhead drones. I've been talking about drones for like over a month now. I've been, you know, last week it was pretty interesting because every time I crossed a certain area, the drones were there. And I was like, oh, is this a coincidence that, you know, it doesn't matter what time of day that I went, you know, through that particular area, the drone was there and it was crossing as I was crossing. So to me, it was evident that, you know, someone was trying to track me. And, you know, as I was preparing for this podcast, we had people gathering outside, you know, coming outside with their children, um, park cars outside. There's a red pickup truck outside. I don't know if it's still outside, but you know, the guy usually likes to park outside so he can extract data. They know what they're doing. They park in front of my house because once they park in front of the house and they turn their car on, they're able to extract data. And that same guy that with the red pickup truck, literally, I think it was, was it last week when the the cable guy came? He came outside, he had his headphones, and he was basically pacing back and forth, basically spying on me, basically to try to figure out okay, what is she talking to him about? And so that's the extent of like the obsession of knowing my every move. If I'm not in my house and they're not able to monitor what I'm saying or doing, and I'm like basically, I mean, I don't have any technology that they they can track me with, and they they come outside. They come outside to try to figure out, okay, what's happening? What is she doing? What is she talking to him about? And so he was pacing back and forth. You know, he did he he asked me how I was, and you know, I made small talk, but I knew that he was there to basically monitor me. And I also saw him in the park the other day as I was walking through the park, and I'm sure it was to monitor me as well. And ladies and gentlemen, this isn't paranoia, it's definitely a pattern of recognition, it's a combination of spiritual warfare, technological warfare, psychological warfare. It's uh it's it's it's all the above. And, you know, speaking of paranoia, I was watching an interview with the former CIO of the White House, her name is Teresa Payton, and I believe it was on the YouTube channel called Scammers Payback, and she mentioned that it's only paranoia if it's not true. And so if I'm saying like these people are on their phones following me, tracking me, and if I notice every instance that it's happening and I'm pointing it out, I it's not paranoia, it's actually happening. And you know, I I think one of the things for me that was probably the most triggering last week when I go into, you know, when I go into that story was not really what was actually happening. It it was m probably more so the explanation of what was happening to, you know, people that were very close to me, but they did not seem to understand, you know, what was happening. And for me, I think that was more frustrating than anything else because they couldn't understand what was actually happening. And I'm, you know, I'm praying that God may open their eyes so that they can actually see what's happening, not only to me, but to them as well, because unfortunately, they have also become a target as a result of everything that is happening. And yeah, so you know, we I talked about the external and internal sabotage, right? In the very beginning. So the external attacks can come from people close to you, some vulnerable and unaware, and others fully aware and willing to worsen the situation. And I'll give you an example of that. Someone that's close to you, that's vulnerable and unaware, you know, they're in your network, right? And so if they if their devices have been somewhat compromised and you're in comp communication or constant contact with them, even if you try to take the necessary measures to protect yourself and to shield yourself, you will always somehow be open to attacks to a certain extent, right? As that saying is you're as strong as your weakest link. And so if like from a security standpoint, let's just talk about like from a cybersecurity standpoint, if they're they have like a weak link because one, they've you know, they're unaware of like what's happening, and or they've decided to dismiss that. Okay, these things are actually happening or that they're happening at that level, then they become vulnerable, but you also become vulnerable too. So that's like you know, a double whammy. And the other the other aspect of it is you know, when we talk about internal sabotage, those that are aware, right? So sometimes it could be a close friend, it could be, you know, someone that is you consider a relative that is actually part of the network of harassment that is actually facilitating things, you know, for you know, the perpetrators that are, you know, this person is now sharing things via group chats, or they're calling you, or calling someone that is close to you at a certain time because they want to try to trigger something. And so, you know, you have that. And when we talk about internal sabotage, I mentioned it before. You have your phone company, software providers, ISPs who become compromised, corrupt, and so they collaborate um with the sabotage. And so then that amplifies it and makes it worse. And, you know, you basically and you you're now in a probably a worse state than you were before. And you know, I've I've already mentioned, you know, the the the heavy surveillance that I've experienced with just, you know, neighbors or people parking by my house. And as I was preparing for this particular, you know, podcast, my system crashed a few times. You know, it crashed because um certain things that I was typing and keywords, you know, probably triggered the crash. And then also some of the things that I was typing, I kind of, you know, it it basically triggered them to reenact it in real time, right? Whether it be someone wearing the same t-shirt or a t-shirt rather, with certain messages, subliminal messages, a certain hairstyle, you know, someone parking in front of my house. Like there was a, you know, a Mercedes-Benz parked around, not directly in front of my house, but you know, right where I think the cable boxes. And, you know, my system had crashed around that time. Then my neighbor who was hovering over my head as I was trying to type about what had just happened, he walked to the front and I guess he was doing something unsure what it was, but whatever it was that he did triggered a crash. And I've seen that before because usually when he walks over my head, he'll walk over my head, then he'll walk to the front. I don't know what he has up front, so he probably has like, you know, his gadgets and things set up in different areas so that they can basically grab information, but that also triggered a crash. And so, you know, those are things, you know, that's happened. They've tried to tamper with my cameras, they tried to tamper with evidence, they've tried to tamper with my laptops, trying to give me viruses and things like that. They've done a lot of different things, and that's like, you know, people that are, I want to say both external and internal, right? External are people that I don't know, people that are either perfect strangers or people that I just, you know, even if I see them every day, but I don't have a relationship with them, I still consider them as external, like neighbors and things like that. You know, I just recently moved here, so I'm not familiar with anyone. And to be honest, everyone pretty much hates me. They everyone is against me, and everyone is all basically they they wake up and they live to basically try to destroy my life. And insider, like an insider threat, would be anyone that is on the inside, whether it's loved one or a quote-unquote loved one, someone that is, you know, in your actual system that should be able to help and protect your system, but is actually doing the opposite when, you know, and that comes, you know, when we're talking about like your internet service providers and so forth. And so, you know, these people are not just watching, they're acting, and they are networked, and they want to basically destroy you by any means necessary. So when we talk about digital stalking, I mentioned before psychological warfare, right? That's one of the ways that they try to basically destabilize you. You know, they'll follow you around even when you don't have any technology on you, because if they spot you on the street, if they spot you on camera, then you know, someone will get a message and say, Whoa, she's outside, right? Like if I go throughout the garbage, if I go do the laundry, if I go outside with no technology, they'll spot me and they'll send someone to go and come and track me. And obviously, it's worse if I have technology on me or if I'm driving, because the other night I came in and it was so funny. This woman, she had, and I'll I'm I'm just purposely describing what she has or what she had on. She had a she had her pajamas on and she had a uh red and black plaid pants. It was her pajama pants, and she came outside with her, you know, as I was coming inside the gate, she I don't want to say she ran back outside or ran back inside, she she went back inside her house very quickly as I pulled up. And so I'm sure, I'm assuming, this is just my guess, that she got a message that I was coming, I was driving by, and she was trying to extract as much information as she could, or she whatever instructions that she was given. And then as she saw me coming, she she went back inside. And to me, you know, that shows a very high level of obsession and desperation to track me and to get my data that instead of being inside your home at night and relaxing, you have to run outside to try to track me. And last week I was pretty busy, you know. I went outside, you know. I've been pretty much homebound for I would say the past month or so. So last week I went out a lot more than I usually do in a week's time. And I was definitely triggered. Not so much, because I mean a lot of the things that happen, I've seen them happen before, but you know, I kind of went outside without like a strategy. And, you know, like a normal person, right? But I am, I'm not a normal person because of my situation and you know the fact that I am being triggered. And so, you know, you have people randomly leaving objects on the street, you know, wearing certain things, doing certain behavior, you know, writing, you know, someone had like a note on their car. Some some like two two uh women, I don't know, maybe they're like college a like undergrad students, they were sitting in front of a store that I was in, and as soon as I came out, they had their camera up, you know, trying to film me. So like just different things that happened that was very triggering to me. And um, I think it's probably because I went out and I I I didn't go out to basically defend myself or I didn't think of of being like on the defense. I just kind of went out because you know, I was out with loved ones and I, you know, was out and about doing trying to live a normal life. And so it was a bit triggering, but I think what also triggered me was that at the time as I was trying to explain what was happening, I I don't think that, you know, the people that I I was, you know, the people I was with, I don't think they fully understood the the extent of what was actually happening. They tried to understand, but you know, the this stuff is really hard to explain to someone that has not either experienced it or is unaware that they are actually experiencing it. Because again, I believe that some people that are within my network are also experiencing it, but they just don't know that they're experiencing it. And so yeah, I I think some of the things that happen, a lot of people might say, well, you know, that's nothing, you know, just ignore it. You know, that's just like minor, like this is it's not a big deal, you know, just ignore it. I think what ends up happening, and again, I hear my echo again. I don't know if it's random or if it's someone trying to record me. I think what makes it triggering is that we have like these microaggressions, these microaggressions happening, these tactics, these coordinated tactics. You have the street theater and you have all these things, you have people following you around, and if it's just one thing that happens once in a while, or one thing that happens in you know, in just one time, that's one thing. But if you're having like these things happen to you over and over and over again, I like to compare this to the one mosquito bite versus being bitten by like a million mosquitoes, right? So you have one microaggression act versus like a million acts, you know, compounded into like your daily life every single day, every single thing that you do, it's there. And so, yeah, that one thing that seems, I guess, minor becomes something that is actually a lot more impactful in a negative sense because so much of it is happening at once with so many people, and so you know, that can trigger you, that can cause you to act and or respond negatively, right, in a negative way. And the Bible talks about that in Psalms 37. It says, not to allow the enemy to trigger you, right? The enemy thinks that they can continue to do whatever they're doing forever, that no one will see them. That's what Psalm 64 says. And Psalm 37 says not to worry when the enemy prospers in their ways, you know, because it's only for a season, it's only for a certain time that this will happen, but it also reminds us not to be triggered or provoked. And I must say, I did definitely allow myself to be triggered. And again, you know, I I didn't fully, I wasn't prepared the way that I should have prepared myself because especially I haven't gone out in a while, and and so I know how I would have handled it had I been prepared, or if I was, you know, by myself, but it it was quite different. The dynamics were different last week. And so I stepped out without strategy and I moved, you know, like a normal person, not like someone that was under constant surveillance. And so, you know, I I paid the that price, and so I was triggered, and I didn't walk in temperance. So the microaggressions hit hard. And so the narrative was ready, right? The the angry black woman, the crazy black woman, the unstable black woman, right? Not the one being attacked, not the one being stalked, just the one who reacted, right? Because everyone will hide their hands. We're not gonna talk about everything that they've been doing to me and the you know how they coordinate their attacks to attack me everywhere I go, but they want to talk about my reaction, right? They provoke you, then they point fingers. But I know who I am and I know what I carry. I know that number one, I'm forgiven. I know that I'm working out my salvation daily, and so I never profess to be a perfect Christian from day one of launching this podcast. I know it's a process. I know that I work out my salvation daily, you know. I am saved, I was saved, and I am being saved daily on a daily basis. The Bible says that a righteous man falls seven times a day. At least, right? At least. And so, you know, it's not by might, not by power, but it's by the spirit, the spirit of God. And so here I am. I was provoked, I walked out of temperance, I did not use that fruit at all. It's a fruit of the spirit, and that's an area that I definitely need God's grace and mercy. And I I never I I definitely need to stir up that fruit. I need to walk in temperance, and I know it's it's hard. And in the situation that I'm in, it's hard. Sometimes I do feel like I I I want to and I need to confront the situation, and at other times I actually ignore it. Like there's so there's been so many times that I've ignored certain things, but there are certain instances where I feel compelled to react. And I think the important thing is I need to know whether I'm acting out of the flesh or the spirit, because there is a time for everything, right? There is a time to speak out, a time to react. But there are times where we should not react. And so I think the important thing is to make sure that you're being led by the spirit and not by your flesh, to kill that flesh and to walk in the temperance that you know God has instilled in you. And so I I am praying for that temperance. I'm praying for God to stir up that fruit within me and to help me as I I go through these trials and these these attacks. And so I want to look at technology as a spiritual weapon. We used to talk about monitoring spirits as Christians, right? We're always talking about monitoring spirits, monitoring spirits. But to be honest, a lot of the monitoring spirits that we are encountering today in this day and age are primarily technological devices and tools and strategies that people are using to monitor us. So we we we talk about drones, malware, signal leakage, hacking, spyware. The enemy doesn't need demons anymore, right? It has devices. We know that the enemy comes around like a roaring lion seeking who he may devour. And so these technological devices and tactics actually facilitate the attacks. Whatever else is, you know, they they want to know what are you working on? What what what do you have going on? What opportunities do you have coming down the pipeline? Are you happy? Are you depressed? If you're happy, how can I try to ruin your day? If you have something good going on, how can I mess that up? How can I spiritually attack you better? Oh, you're praying about this. Let me pray the contrary. Oh, you just prayed, let me try to undo your prayer. I mean, I talked about it in the beginning, right? And I gave you an example, specific example of someone that I know who is constantly doing that around the clock. So the enemy basically wants to destroy you. The enemy wants to destroy me. I know that. So the enemy wants to literally and like spiritually blow out your candle. Anything that you have that shows any aspect of light or anything that is good, they want to try to destroy it. And so when we talk about monitoring spirits and we talk about evil and we talk about using technology to do evil, it's real, ladies and gentlemen. Not only are they using these devices, right? Whether it's fat viruses, malware, adware, spyware, whatever it is to do bad, but then it it there's a there's another layer and even a deeper layer. I I mean, I've always kind of you know uh thought about like I I've always looked at technology from two different lenses, right? You know, the the good and the bad aspects of technology and how you know it could just turn into like something very, very bad for humanity. But the other day, like a couple of weeks ago, I heard an interview. It was on uh Tucker Carlson's podcast, and the person that he was interviewing mentioned that one of the creators of AI actually consulted or summoned a demon or demons to develop the AI technology, and so that to me is very alarming. And there are other things that were mentioned on that podcast that was quite alarming to me. And like one of the questions that they asked, which was very kind of intriguing, was like, is this something new? Like, is it a new technology, or did we give a body to something that did not already exist? And I'm using like body figuratively, like the structure of technology to like a demonic entity like within the technological structure, we're giving AI like a body. I mean, that was you know, more or less what that question was, right? And and I think I think I think it was Tucker that asked him that question, if if I remember correctly. I mean, go and watch the go ahead and watch the interview. I don't I don't recall. There there were a lot of interesting pieces. It was a very interesting interview, although there were some parts that kind of left a bad taste in my mouth, but for the most part, it was a very it was a very interesting and uh very good interview and very insightful, very insightful. This is not related to the to to like what I'm talking about today. The other thing that he mentioned, which I need to do some research on, he also mentioned something about the King James Version and how that was translated, and what or who was summoned to translate the King James Version of the Bible. So that has given me some pause as well. So, you know, I don't want to repeat something that's wrong without verifying it, but that actually gave me some pause, and it's definitely something I want to look into to see, okay, how did we get to the King James Version of our Bible and who actually did the translating or who inspired the translation of the King James Version. He talks about that in in that episode. So, I mean, check it out and you know, see it for yourself and you know, cross-check it, fact-check it, whatever you guys want to do. But it was a it was an interesting episode. And I I say all this to say how we live in a world, right? We live in a sinful world, and the demonic is all around us, the enemy is all around us. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy, and so it'll infiltrate even what's good, right? To try to destroy it. And, you know, technology, obviously, at least I would hope, was not created to destroy us, right? But to make us better at what we do, to make us more efficient. But, you know, as humans, unfortunately, we are now using it to basically destroy each other, and that is unfortunate. And that's another aspect of the enemy coming to kill, still, and destroy. And the the the the the King James version still kind of um has me kind of questioning a lot of different things, and I need to to look into that more before speaking on it, but I I you know I I was uh I was baffled by some of the things that he was saying and intrigued in some other instances, and just kind of like, wow, that's a lot of information, and a lot of the things that some people would say were like conspiracy theories or things of that nature, he kind of verified like these things are actually happening, like it's not like a conspiracy theory, like this stuff is actually happening, so yeah. In any event, speaking of the enemy coming to kill, steal, and destroy, you know, I've mentioned this before. My podcast has been under attack since its launch. So the the interesting thing about it is that they want they want to know what I'll say next. They they'll listen, right? They'll listen in hiding, whether it's in their car, trying to tap into my network, trying to eavesdrop, trying to record me illegally. They'll try to distribute that or live stream it via their group chats. They'll even try to duplicate or regurgitate, you know, my experiences or what I'm saying, both to I I want to say like to troll, but also to actually they know that okay, she's making good points, but we're trying to we're sabotaging her anyway, so we'll pass this off as our experience, as if we're actually going through this, or it was our thought, or whatever, or we'll do this to troll her, and you know, I've seen that, but you know, they're listening, they are listening. I mean, so don't let the numbers fool you. They are actively watching, they are actively listening, they always want to know what Marie is doing next. If Marie's home, they are tuned in. What is Marie doing? What is she eating? When is she going to the bathroom? When is Marie going to take a shower? Marie's outside, oh my gosh. Marie's throwing out the garbage, Marie's doing laundry. Those they are constantly watching. So when I decide to speak, or whenever whenever I decide to talk and about a particular topic on my podcast, about a specific experience, they are tuned in. They are tuned in and they are listening. So, I mean, that is what has been happening. You know, they they'll try to crash my system, as I mentioned. They'll try to obstruct my uploads, just different interference, which I mentioned before. You know, like I said in in the opening of this segment, they literally want to blow out my candle. But I've got oil that they can't touch. That's for sure. That's for sure. They can try to blow it out as much as possible. And so the the other types of attacks, we talked about psychological attacks, we talked about symbolic harassment or psychological warfare, right? So I mentioned earlier, you know, as I was typing literally mid-sentence, like my neighbors sent their children past my apartment randomly. They were really loud. And it happened a few times during this recording, actually, just to try to disrupt me. But also they dressed them in like subliminal t-shirts with you know messaging on there, whether it's a a written message or a picture or something, right? And so it's kind of like, okay, you're actually vetting what I'm saying because now you're not only vetting that you're surveilling me because now you're reacting and sending people basically to prove what I'm saying is happening, but you're doing it in real time, right? So you're vetting the surveillance, you're also vetting the harassment. And I also mentioned about the Mercedes Benz that was parked outside during the system crash. And when I saw the car, I said, okay, I'm going, I'm going outside. And I typed, there's a Mercedes-Benz parked outside, and as I went outside, they were gone. So literally, literally, they are basically monitoring my every move. And so, you know, they are watching, they're not just watching, they're reacting, right? Because now they're watching, they're spying, they're listening, and they're reacting, basically trying to create more triggers. And I just want to tell y'all, I was not triggered. I don't get, I don't easily get triggered. I was triggered last week for a variety of reasons, but I've managed to go through this stuff so many times over the past two and a half years. It's been going on a lot longer, but I only use the past two and a half years because that's when it actually magnified. And so I have learned to ignore a lot of things. I think the most important thing to me now is to basically try to contain and come up with a way to resolve the invasion of my technology, the invasion of my privacy. That's what I'm trying to contain right now. I know even after I do that, the the harassment, or at least the subliminal, the subliminal harassment might still continue, but you know, I'll just ignore it as much as possible. And if the Holy Spirit leads me to react or to act, I will. But aside from that, you know, I'll do whatever God leads me to do. I mean, there is a time for everything, as it says in Ecclesiastes, and also the the word of God also says faith without works is dead. And so there are times where we have to yield, right? After we've made a request or after we've done what God said to do, where we just it's waiting and yielding and waiting on God, but there are times where God wants us to act. Which brings me to the second half of John 10:10, right? Which says that God has come to give us life more abundantly. We we see in the earlier or the first half of that scripture, it talks about how the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but God has come to give us life more abundantly into the full. I think that's what the amplified version says. So we first, in order to live life more abundantly, or that part of the scripture, we first have to learn when it's the right time to yield, right? When is the right time to yield with God? When is the right time to yield to God and how to collaborate with God and when it's when God needs us to collaborate with Him, right? Because as I mentioned, faith without works is dead. And so we partner with God as the Spirit leads us, the Holy Spirit leads us, and then we also yield as the Holy Spirit leads us. We yield when God says yield, we act when the spirit says act, and we pray strategically, prophetically, and persistently. We don't lean on our own understanding at as it says in the scripture, but we trust that you know God is going to direct our steps and that we're trusting in the vision and that it is a for an appointed time and that it will surely come to pass despite what you know the delays that it may, although it may seem like it's a delay or whatever, we know that God is going to bring things to past. And so for me, in my personal experience, for those who have gotten to know me through my podcasts, you know, the first two seasons, we're we're in season two now. You've gotten to know me over 10 episodes from the first season, and you're getting to know me better now in this second season. And some people think they know me, but they don't because they're seeing what has been used to paint me in a certain light. But with all that being said, I think one thing that most people know about me, even the ones that don't know me or that don't have a full picture of me, is they know that I pray. I pray a lot. I have a pretty I think I have a good prayer life. Um, I think there are things that I can do to change that still, you know. I'm not a perfect person, but I've been praying for a long time. And I can say I've definitely seen God's protection, I've seen God's mercy, I've seen God's grace, but I've also experienced delays, sabotage, and what I would like to call loss. But I also know that God works all things together for the good of them that love him. And so I think one of the things that I need to work on, in addition to temperance, right? I talked about temperance is an area that I know that God is also dealing with me as I am being triggered, right? And and rightfully so, right? Any person in my shoes would probably react in the same way, or if not worse. But I know what the Bible says about temperance and not being allowing the enemy to provoke you. So I want to act in accordance to what the Bible says. I also want to yield, right? I don't want to play God, I don't want to be the God of my life. I want to rely on God. And so when I pray, I want to yield at the right time, right? I want to have that discernment. My old pastor, Dr. Ireland from Christchurch, and the only reason why he's my old pastor is because I've moved, I've relocated to another state. He's a wonderful pastor. We were doing, he was doing a series on praying, and he used the acronym pray. P is for praise, R is for repent, ask, A is for ask, and Y is for yield. And so in that order, right? So when we pray, we first praise God, we then repent, we then ask, and then we yield. And so I've done, I've definitely done the first three. I know I've done the first three. I've done the first three. I've definitely repented, I've definitely asked. I think I probably need to do more of the first part, the praise and the yield. I think those two areas I are probably deficient. I've done a lot of repenting, I've done a lot of asking. While I've done praising, I think I could do more praising. And actually, praising is actually. More effective, and I've heard this a lot in different spiritual circles, but even like I've done a lot of reading on exorcisms, and that is actually one of the most effective uh weapons that you can use more than casting, I cast you out or whatever it is. Like praising God is one of the most effective weapons that you can use. And so, you know, I want to commit to more praising and also yielding to God. You know, the scripture says, cast your cares on the Lord because his burden is light and his yoke is easy, and so I want to experience that easy yoke. I want to experience that abundant life that God talks about. And I need to yield. I I I I I recognize that. I recognize that. And, you know, I mentioned I was, you know, I spent time with loved ones, you know, the past week, and that was something that I was reminded of. Like, you know, if you you're praying, you believe God is gonna do it, you believe God is gonna handle things, why are you, you know, why are you reacting? Why are you upset? Like, you know, let God be God. And you know, that that's true. Let God be God. Let God be God. Yield. And I want to yield when it's time to yield, and I want to act when it's time to act, according to how God and the Holy Spirit leads me. And finally, I want to reflect like from a spiritual standpoint, in terms of like why so many people can come against one person, one voice, one destiny, right? People point fingers, you know, they'll say it's my fault that I'm being attacked, that I'm being punished, it's karma, like I've heard all things, reckoning, whatever it is that they want to use, that I'm the problem. And, you know, I I beg to differ. I'm not perfect by any means, and you know, I'm working out my salvation daily. I definitely count it all joy, right? So from a spiritual standpoint, the trials that I'm facing, not from a natural standpoint, because like this is this is horrible what's happening. But with that being said, I don't believe I I deserve it. I don't believe the attacks are warranted. And, you know, I've been mislabeled, I've I've I've I've been misjudged, I've been blamed, you know, for reacting to oppression or being attacked. I've been, you know, I've been doxxed, I've been sabotaged in so many different ways. A lot of things have been done to me, and like it's just a group of people basically ganging up on me, right? That's why it's called gang stalking. Like people are ganging up on you to attack you in every aspect of your life. And, you know, you watch people that that participate in those attacks, right? They become guilty by association, right? You're you're actually now facilitating the attacks because now you're you're you're uh intermediary between the attacker and me, and you're basically providing updates, sharing information, making that phone call as you pass by my house so that somehow you can tap into my network, whatever it is that you're doing, you're just as guilty. And, you know, also seeing the same people who point fingers and you know, they carry their own hidden sins, right? We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. And I've seen people like get upset and over, I'll say overreact in quotes for a lot less than what I'm going through right now. And they're the same people because they thought someone might have compromised something that they said or something that what they deemed private, and they're the same people that are actually leading the attacks, that are leading, you know, all of these, you know, the smear campaigns and everything that are facilitating things, that are sharing screens, sharing information, you know, trying to destroy relationships and and things like that. And so, and and I've said this before, if this many people are coming against one person, that person, in in which case, or in this case, you know, is me, must carry weight. And and if that many people, whomever they are, if they were innocent, they become guilty, the moment they participate in the oppression, the moment you turn a blind eye when you know it's happening. So, you know, I I just want to close in saying that every attempt to kill, steal, or destroy what God has for me is reversed. My voice is encrypted in heaven, and my platform is sealed by God. I walk in abundance, and no tactic of the enemy shall prosper. My prayers are not undone, they are multiplied, my peace is not stolen, it is fortified, my harvest is not delayed, it is protected. Thank you for joining me. I know this was a longer episode, but we needed to catch up, and hopefully, I'll see you sooner than later. Thank you for joining the diary of a sane black woman.