Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 0:28

Hello, welcome back to the Dire-Rie of a Sane Black Woman. This is Marie, I'm your host and I will be sharing with you my experiences as a targeted individual who has been cyber-stalked, harassed, among many other things and I use the term has been very loosely because it's something that is still ongoing every single day, morning, noon and night. So today I wanted to talk about the weight of opposition, specifically the obstruction of the progress of the destined state. What are you destined to accomplish? What is your calling? What has God called you to do? What is your purpose in life? And that could be a spiritual purpose, but it could just be, um, you know what God has called you. You know, as far as like, what your career is Right.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:35

I believe that certain, certain professions have, like, divine callings because they play such a special role in our community. Doctors, lawyers imagine not having these people around. Doctors, lawyers imagine not having these people around. They play very key roles and I think you know, when we look at a calling, there is the spiritual aspect of a calling, but there's also the not. I guess the lay person also has a calling right To make a change, to make an impact in society, and so one of the things that we see throughout the Bible is that, typically, those who have a calling on their life typically face a lot of opposition. That is a definite sign of divine calling. As Creflo Dollar would say, if the devil is not messing with you, you ain't got nothing he wants. And so I'm not saying that I like. I like the persecution and the oppression, but, um, I think you know that's part of the calling, right, um so it, it is what it is, um so, with that being said, um, when opposition intensifies spiritually, technologically and carnally. So what I wanted to basically look at today is not just the technological aspect of these spiritual attacks. Right, I wanted to also look at the spiritual aspect, because things are done or basically come to fruition first in the spiritual realm before they come to fruition in the natural, and so my perspective and my belief is that these digital attacks, these carnal attacks, are just a manifestation of something that was already done in the spiritual realm.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 3:58

Right, and so, um, that's twofold. Right, there's a spiritual calling. I believe that God has a spiritual calling, a very intense spiritual calling on my life. It's not something that I ever thought that you know my life, that would be kind of like my path. I always believed in God, but I never thought that I would ever be like, have a spiritual calling on my. There's that.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 4:33

And then you have, like, the demonic realm, the principalities, which are also in the spiritual realm, and they can see that calling. They see that calling that you have on your life, and so what happens? Then they try to obstruct the progress of the destined state, and they do that by influencing others spiritually. They can inhabit someone, or they can just basically just inspire them to attack you, whether that's technologically or by carnal means and I say carnal means and that could be, you know, through harassing you or what have you. And I also use the term they can inspire someone to harass you, because sometimes people are not necessarily possessed by a demonic entity or a spirit, and sometimes they're not even, I would say, bewitched. I think sometimes they're just inspired by the enemy to do something. Sometimes they're just inspired by the enemy to do something.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 5:33

I remember when I first started becoming aware of these digital attacks and everything that was happening to me, and I remember one pastor. It was at a church that I used to attend and he's a, he's a prophet, and so, um, he spoke to me and he said what he said basically, what's happening, anywhere you go, it's going to happen because, basically, whatever spirit is, whatever spirit is um inspiring those people or influencing them to attack you, it's just going to jump into someone else and that attack is going to happen again. So it's just. You know, I think there's an order here. Um, we are spirit, soul and body, and so, um, sometimes we have to address things, um from the spiritual aspect first, to address things um from the spiritual aspect first, and then we can look at the, the natural right, um, I don't think it's either. Or um, we're super natural, so we are super and natural, and so we have to look at things from both the super and the natural realm and um, the super and the natural realm and um, with that being said, um, you know, I, I also remember the pastor mentioning to me and at that point I, I had no idea it was like I was being attacked or targeted for spiritual reasons. He was just like oh, um, are you being attacked because you're a Christian or are you being targeted because, um, you're a Christian? And um, I, I don't. I don't recall what my response was to that, um, I just know that he had mentioned that to me, that, um, whatever is attacking you will follow uh, because it's the spirit that is basically um influencing these people to attack you. And so, um, I think I was looking um to him at that time. I remember our conversation specifically, um, I, I was actually in a program, in a um in a graduate program.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 7:56

I went back for my second master's um and um, I was, you know, being attacked by um, the students um in the uh in the program. They were basically stalking me, um, harassing me and all of that Um. And so I was thinking, well, you know, I just I don't want to deal with this. I am going to maybe either take a break for the semester or enroll in a different program. And so, after speaking to him, I actually decided to complete the program.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 8:36

It was a very tough time because, imagine, at the time I was working full-time, I was in a full-time graduate program at a very prestigious university and I had to deal with all of this harassment, the psychological harassment, the cyber attacks and all this other stuff. So, and then, you know, there are other things also, right, there's other things that's happening in my natural life as well, and so it was just, it was a lot, but I thank God for that, because I think that made me a lot more resilient and prepared me for the level of attacks that I'm getting today, because since that time I would say it's like two plus years forward now it has intensified. And so when we look at the intensity of an opposition right. So the theme here is that the intensity of an opposition often mirrors the significance of someone's assignment.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 9:58

And, look, I'm not saying that I'm like this special person or whatever, because I know people are just going to try to twist my words and they're going to say, oh, my gosh, she's so full of herself, she's a narcissist, because, you know, that's the buzzword that everyone is throwing around these days. But I'm just basically sharing my experience and the pull that I feel from God through divine inspiration and what the Holy Spirit has been basically downloading in my spirit, that I do have a calling and that's why, um, I've had such a difficult life. You know, um, forget about the cyber harassment and attacks for now, but, just like, my life as a whole has just been um, tumultuous Right, um, tumultuous Right, and so, uh, with that being said, yeah, um, I do believe that God has a special calling on my life. Um, and that does not make me a narcissist for saying that. And um, being confident or assertive doesn't make someone a narcissist, um, and someone that is resilient just because I'm resilient doesn't make me a narcissist, okay, um, that's just another form of gaslighting and victim blaming. Um.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 11:22

So, in any event, I wanted to kind of look at the three fold assault that is currently occurring. We have the spiritual realm, which I mentioned, which then manifests into the technological aspects as well as the carnal aspects, which aren't random, right, it's very strategic and is very is deeply revealing, right, um? So, with that being said, let's look at the spiritual realm, right, so, in the spiritual realm, we have warfare, we have oppression and, um, through oppression and persecution, we have, uh, different symptoms, um, that can basically manifest. That can be confusion, or the enemies attempt to confuse you. So distraction, um, anxiety, among many other things.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 12:29

And when we talk about spiritual warfare, I just want to say this as well right, there is spiritual warfare, or spiritual things that we inherit right Through generations, because the Bible talks about you know, certain things follow people for four generations. So if your forefathers did something that you had nothing to do with. You may be basically reaping some of these things, whether that's good or bad, and you know. But there are ways to kind of overcome that spiritually through prayer and deliverance you can actually overcome that. So there's that. So I definitely know that I have generational um things that I need to contend with and that I'm still praying about, um, you know, for full and complete deliverance, for um is spiritual warfare that basically you're faced with. That I want to say, to a certain extent is inevitable because the enemy will try to attack you because they see that you have a calling on yourself. And there's also spiritual warfare that, because of choices that we make in life, um, we attract or we call on ourselves. And so I can say that my spiritual warfare encompasses all three because, you know, I have the generational um warfare.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 14:10

I have the um warfare based on my calling and then also warfare based on mistakes, past mistakes that I've made, whether they were, um, you know, unconscious mistakes, uh, just based out of being naive or just deliberately. You know um sinning or um not doing what I know that I should be doing, um as, uh, you know, as a child of God. So, um, but thanks be to God that we have Jesus Christ, we have the blood of Jesus, right, um, right, we see that in Romans. In Romans I believe it's a chapter 7 and chapter 8. I love those two chapters because it really go. I mean the entire chapter of Romans like it, even if we start from Romans, chapter 5.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 15:09

I won't be going into that study today, but, um, if you look at it, romans just talks about how, um, romans seven talks about people struggling with sin and, um, you know what can they do? Uh, you know they do what they they don't want to do and what they want to do they don't do. And, like, you know who can basically uh, save me from this, this wretched, uh soul and this wretched body? And then so it's. It goes into right, christ basically coming and dying on the cross for us to fulfill the law, and so he hasn't come to abolish the law but to uphold it. So thanks be to God for Christ, who died on the cross for me, and through his cleansing blood, I can not only have the absolved of my sins, but I can also overcome, um, you know, every attack that has been um that I have been faced with, um today, and so now that brings me into, that's the technological aspect. So, um, again, I said that, um, it first starts spiritually and then it manifests technologically, and so, uh, the enemy, and that that that's the devil, just like a generic term.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 16:28

Um, it has been afforded technology these days to basically attack people, um, and monitor them. You no longer, you no longer need, you no longer need a monitoring spirit in the spiritual realm. You don't need someone to monitor someone spiritually, you can actually monitor them through technology. And so that has advanced, um, the demonic activity, right? Um, we even have, and and I've seen that, and I don't even want to label it as Christian, because if you're a Christian and you're doing that, um, and you're you're, you're, you're, you're, you're attributing it to God, then I think we need to kind of do some self-reflection. And again, I'm not, I'm not finger pointing here or anything, but I just think that, you know, sometimes we have to be careful what we say, that God told us and when we know that it's not God, right. So when we talk about, like, the surveillance and monitoring spirits I've seen online people coming online and that could be, you know, new age people that are posting things, whether they're psychics or anything like that saying, oh, I'm seeing the cards, or saying this and that, and I know it's bogus, because they're using technology to get that information.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 17:59

It's not. They're not getting it from their spirit guide or whomever. It's the technology that's giving them the information. It's the group chats that's giving them the information. And I've also seen that in quote unquote Christian circles, where people are labeling themselves as prophets and they're saying God told me, or I heard the audible voice of God and God told me this, or I dreamt, I had this dream and God in the vision, this happened and it's baloney. It's baloney. They're getting it from technology. Technology is giving them the information. The group chats that they're in is giving them the information and they're trying to pass it on as prophecy or um a lit, a legitimate reading. And I'm not saying and that's not to say that there isn't legitimate psychics or prophets, right, I believe that there are legitimate people out there that actually down, get downloads from whatever spirit that they're working with and they they actually get real information.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 19:07

But we have a lot of counterfeits, both in the Christian realm and other realms, that are trying to pass as if they are so spiritually connected with God that God is constantly downloading information to them and they hear God's audible voice on a daily basis when they know it's technology, when they know it's technology and um, in that regard, I can also tie that in with the spiritual aspect, because I've seen that be weaponized against me Right. Um, I've there. There have been uh, specific channels quote unquote Christian channels, um that um quote unquote prophesize the word of God and that have been used um, you know, through technology, right, they're being fed this information and the group chats and the technology to basically so subliminal messages towards me and um, so that's kind of like the technological manifestation as well as the, the carnal manifestation, which is human betrayal, uh, betrayal, slander, um resistance, harassment, whether it be subliminal or not. And then you know, the technological aspect is basically um, these people are now um, these people are now empowered through technology to stalk, to monitor and to extract information about you and they can use that as digital sabotage, attempt to basically mock you, attempts to ridicule you. You know there's um. I don't want to say a prop placement, I'll say prop placement, um, prop placement in um certain lives where people will have certain things in their background or they'll have a certain mug with a certain, um you know, figure on it or you know they'll be wearing a particular hat or something Um, so just different things, to kind of basically again wink at you and let you know, oh, I, I know something Um, or you know, it's just kind of like an inside but not so inside joke, uh sort of thing, and so that's kind of like an example. But you know, I I digress Well, maybe not, because I thought it was pretty important not only to express the three different, distinct realms that the assault occurs in, but also provide devil through the spiritual realm.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 21:43

They have. Um. You can kind of say, okay, they have a right right. So, um, they have a legal right because through, whether it's um, through generational um, you know iniquities, or through a choice that you've made through sin, or through um, your calling Um. Now, through your calling, I wouldn't necessarily say they have like a legal right, but it's sometimes it's just part of your process as God is pruning you and preparing you for your calling Um.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 22:31

But, that being said, the, the, the, the, the, god is our ransom right. So God has ransomed us. So whatever legal right that, uh, the enemy may be trying to claim in the spiritual realm, we have the right to be free from that, because God has ransomed us through the blood of Jesus Christ, right? So you know, if we repent and if we, um confess our sins and, um, basically submit to God, um, he will deliver us. He will deliver us. He is faithful to deliver us, and we know that we serve a faithful God. He doesn't treat us as our sins deserve and he's faithful to us even when we're not faithful. And the love of God covers a multitude of sin. And we know that the blood of Jesus is powerful and that it speaks better words than the blood of Abel. So, anything that can be crying out against you, any evil altar that can be crying out against you, the blood of Jesus is more powerful than that.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 23:41

So, with that being said, so, in the spiritual realm, through spiritual manipulation, we see that manifested through technology, especially today. Um, the enemy is using technology to attack, um, you know, christians to attack other people, that other non-Christians, right, just for their, whatever their purpose is. And it's strategic, it's strategic. So that brings me into the unseen war, right? So Ephesians 6, 12 says it reminds us that our battle is not against flesh and blood, so, but against principalities, powers and so forth. Right. We know we are all familiar or a lot of Christians, I would say, are familiar with this specific scripture.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 24:40

So, in terms of addressing the attacks, it's important to focus on the spiritual aspect and make sure that that's your foundation. And so I've been leaning on prayer. For me, my daily walk with God has been prayer. Prayer has been my foundation, prayer has been my foundation. I don't believe that I would still be here, that I would still be standing here today. The resilience that I have is through the word of God, which is the sword of the spirit, and so I thank God for that. That's how I've been basically. You know, that's how I've been. That's why I'm still here. Essentially I've been um, that's why I'm still here, essentially. So, and through the spiritual realm.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 25:36

Sometimes, you know, attacks can come as fatigue, isolation, fear, confusion. The enemy targets what carries authority, which I said before, and so, um, it's first starts in the spiritual realm and then you can kind of see it manifest in the natural right. If you're someone that is always um, on the go, you know you like to do things, you like to work out, you like to go to the gym, you're like very active and um, you know you're very goal oriented and all of a sudden you just become very lethargic and you feel like very tired and fatigued. That's an indication of spiritual attacks. Sometimes the enemy attacks you that way. It's an easy way to attack you, just by making you tired. And then the other way that they try to attack you is through isolation, right.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 26:34

And so smearing, smear campaigns, trying to cause fear, right. So if they're harassing you and attacking you, so part of creating fear is making you fearful to go out, agoraphobia or you know any other type of fear that you may have fear of being um, exposed, right. Fear of being um, whatever it is that they may have, um to try to uh, obstruct, uh, the progress of the destined state. But be to God that no weapon formed against me, no weapon formed against us will prosper and that what the enemy meant for bad God will turn into good. And so the enemy, as I mentioned, part sometimes in the spiritual realm. The enemy targets what carries authority, and I'm talking about spiritual authority. So if your presence stirs the spirit realm, your calling is disruptive in the best way, and so you're going to be attacked.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 27:47

And so what we're seeing here is a spiritual attack, or spiritual attacks manifested in the natural. And so, um we see in the Bible where God said Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do. Father, forgive them for they know not what they do Because a lot of people, I believe, are bewitched, they're under some type of influence and it's just like they can't really see that what they're doing is wrong. And so I do ask for God, I do ask that God may have mercy on the souls of every individual that has been attacking me. May God have mercy on their souls, because I believe a lot of them are under some type of spiritual bewitchment and they really they are. They don't know what they do and I, I, they don't know what they're doing. And I also think that some of them are just um, they don't have purpose in life. Um, they don't have purpose, they um, they're hurt.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 29:02

You know the this there's's, you know, obviously, the colloquialism um hurting people hurt people and um you know for you to basically your whole purpose and goal in life is to attack someone morning, noon and night. Um to um, to attack their devices, to run smear campaigns, to do social media challenges, to try to monetize on their pain, to exploit um whatever vulnerabilities that they may have, Um, that is, uh, it's sad, it's. It's it's for someone to, to, to, to basically um, to do that and to basically feel like that's what their purpose in life is. Um is sad to me, um, and and I pray that God may have mercy on on their souls.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 30:03

So, um, let's take a look at technological app opposition. We know that, as I mentioned before, it starts in the spiritual realm and I kind of went through, like my experiences, and you know, kind of um gave a very uh, meaty um intro to that. But technological opposition is a silencing signal, right, and it's a modern muzzle, it's a form to muzzle you. So I can definitely say, in addition to all of the attacks, that I've been getting um for the past three plus years, and I only say I say the past three plus years loosely, because that's when I I became um aware that this was happening. But I believe that this has been going on for a lot longer and God had revealed it to me in the spiritual realm through dreams and things like that and just um, sometimes you can kind of intuitively feel and you know, as a Christian, my intuition is like my spirit, the spirit that lives in me, which is the spirit of God. Um, I knew that there was some form of monitoring or something that was going on, and that God always shows me when things are going to happen, but, um, I guess I did not, uh, tune in, tune into it enough to kind of get the divine direction as to how I should address it. And, um, so be it. But all things work together for the good of them that love the Lord.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 31:45

That being said, fast forward, so like thus far, that the cyber harassment, especially this past year, has magnified and, again, as I mentioned, this is a global attack, right. So I have people in different countries all over the world that don't even know me, that are basically attacking me, whether it's trying to tap into my network or even, um, making posts and videos about me, right, and I don't know these people, people and, um, and, mind you, I am a, I'm not a public figure. At least, uh, I wasn't a public figure, I guess right now I, I mean, I guess I am a quote, unquote public figure. I don't know if, if, if, I can say that, but it's, it wasn't, I didn't choose it, I did not choose it. I'm very, I'm someone that's very reserved, I'm a very private person. I like my privacy. Um, I don't. Um, I really keep to myself. And so I also know that this attack was designed to basically turn my world upside down, because the enemy knows that I'm a private person. And so what better way to turn everything, or try to turn my world upside down, by basically breaching my privacy, violating my privacy and so forth.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 33:17

So, um, since I've decided right to basically create this docu-series document, what I've been facing, you know, come out here and you know, tell my truth, speak my truth. There has been opposition, there has been opposition. So, as if what has been going on is not enough, the enemy is basically trying to obstruct my work. They're trying to obstruct my work, they're trying to obstruct my voice, they are attacking my devices. My neighbor who lives above me, he does not sleep because he monitors me morning, noon and night. My computer crashes. You know he's, he's trying to. If I move with my device one way, he'll move. I can hear him move in that direction. I can feel the RF, the EMF waves and all of that. I can see it. If I'm on the phone or if I, you know, trying to, they go outside to try to basically tap into my network.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 34:20

Um, I started um, not only the podcast, but, you know, I, you know I'm now posting um, my podcast on YouTube. They tried to attack my YouTube channel, they, you know. So it's it's a combination of human agents and bots, right, so it's like, um, it's combined. Um, we have spiritual attacks, technological attacks, but technological attacks facilitated through bots and other means, and then so you have that. So you have a lot of different things, and imagine that, right, I have a small platform, at least for now. I, I, I have a small platform, at least for now. I don't think it's going to stay small. I just, I believe that this is going to basically, um, uh, grow into something very significant, not for my glory, but for God's glory.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 35:15

Um, but they're trying to silence me. They are trying to silence me, um, through attacking my technology, my character and so forth and so on. Um, so they know that me actually coming out and basically speaking my truth, showing my, my face. Um, basically saying look, I'm not ashamed. You're trying to shame me into oblivion. You're trying to shame me into silence. You're trying to ruin my reputation. No, I'm going to speak out about it, I'm going to show my face. I was never ashamed. I retreated as a form of basically it was a defense mechanism to basically preserve my sanity and try to preserve my privacy as much as possible.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 36:17

So, you know, the tech space, you know, has obviously become a battlefield, because I know the enemy knows that the message that God has, that the rhema word that God will be speaking through me in coming days, months and years is going to be piercing and that my platform is under attack because the message that you know, god has for me to share is, uh, too potent to ignore and that, um, you know that's the, the opposer, the accuser of the brethren, the. The last thing that they would want to see is to me actually come on here and speak my truth and say, hey, I know you're monitoring me, I know you're attacking my devices, what you're doing is wrong and I'm going to speak my truth. You can't shame me, you can't harass me, you can't try to anchor me to my past, because God said in Psalms 103 that he has removed my sins from me as far as the east is from the west Right. So, whether you try to bring up my past, whether you try to make up lies about me, whether you try to mix things, mix the truth with lies. That is not going to stop me. You can't stop me, you can't oppose the progress of the destined state. God, what God said will happen, will happen, period.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 37:56

So now this brings me into carnal opposition, which we kind of gotten into before. But carnal opposition is essentially human resistance, right? So we first looked at um, the spiritual manifestation, um that then manifested into the technological, um realm, and then also, uh, carnal opposition, so, and they all work hand in hand, right? So, uh, the humans are being influenced by the spiritual realm and then also by technology, right? So we have an aspect of mind control as well. Right, they're being programmed to think whatever is being fed to them through their feet. And so now they have, like this perspective that's been fed and manipulated, um, by human agents.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 38:41

Like this perspective that's been fed and manipulated by human agents, right, so there's this story that they want to get, there's this perception or propaganda that they're trying to frame, and so, like, that's part of the programming and they're using technology to do that, right, and so you know, as far as, like, human resistance right is, people may mock you, they'll slander you, they'll try to block opportunities. You know they'll harass you, whether it's subliminal or explicit harassment, and so, you know, sometimes flesh reacts to the discomfort you know your spirit provokes, so, like if they feel that and they may not even know right, consciously, maybe subconsciously they know, but maybe subconsciously they know, but consciously they may not even know why they're provoked by me. You don't know me, I never did anything to you, but you're provoked by me. Know me, I never did anything to you, but you're provoked by me. My spirit provokes you, and that's, that's an absence of like all of this uh, propaganda, the slander, the smear campaign that has been going on, because now people can say well, you know, um, we see that you said this, or we see that you have this point of view, and so, um, for that reason, we have a reason to attack you. Or we think that you said this, or you subscribe to that, um, you know school of thought or theology, Um, so now we have a reason to attack. You know I mean it. It doesn't justify it because, um, at the end of the day, whether what they're saying or is all true, partially true, um, or just a complete lie, um, no one has the right to basically harass someone, invade their privacy for their beliefs. Their privacy for their beliefs. Especially, I haven't, I, I I've never come directly to you to say anything. Um, I haven't said anything to you personally that was disrespectful. Um, so I believe that people are entitled to believe what they believe and do what they what they do, and so the fact that you're attacking someone that you don't know um says a lot and um, so it is what it is. I mean, even Jesus faced betrayal right From, and not only from people that he didn't know, but even those that were close to him. Um, so carnal opposition often reveals spiritual discomfort in others.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 41:29

And um, the other thing which I didn't really go into as far as, like, the spiritual attacks, and I, I I mainly went over um, how in the spiritual realm, you know the, the enemy can have like a legal right to basically do certain things to attack you. But there's also um, and then I just went into straight into how that's manifested through technology, but also there are spiritual attacks right. So not just the legal right, but the spiritual attacks right Someone might try to send a hex to you, towards you right To either make you sick, to affect your finances, to cause anxiety, to make you basically lethargic or sleepy, um, just different things that they can try to sew. And then when, when those attacks don't actually work directly through you, then they use other people to attack you. So, when they can't get to you spiritually, uh, when they can't get to you directly through, uh, when they can't get to you directly through spiritual means, then they try to use others to attack you, right? And so then that starts to manifest in um the natural, whether that be through technological means or or any other means.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 42:57

And then you know, as we saw in um the story of Job, just because all of this is happening, just because these attacks are happening, and I've been praying, because I know that's the other thing, well, god is not answering her prayer, god hasn't heard her. No, god is with me, god has not left me. The word of God says he will never leave me, nor forsake me. Yes, god says that he is faithful to me, even when I'm not faithful. So the hand of God has not left me. And sometimes, um, you know, god allows things to happen, as you know, as a way to prune us, to make us, to sharpen us Right. We go through the fire to be purified, and so we have to be patient with that process, and God has been dealing with me with that Um and just trusting in God and surrendering to God and knowing that, um, I am first spirit, then soul, then body. And so I I need to, and I have been trying to kind of reframe, reframe my focus right To kind of see that, okay, this is happening Sometimes.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 44:32

In a lot of instances, it's not the person that's attacking me. There's a spirit behind that person that's causing them to attack me. There's a spirit behind that person that's actually influencing them to attack me. There's a spirit behind that person that's actually influencing them to attack me. And so I mentioned that these attacks are strategic, right. So the enemy is very strategic in attacking, um, especially a believer, especially a called one, especially someone that has a calling on their life, and it's a form of distraction. Distraction can be looked at as a silent assassin. So not every attack is loud, some are subtle, and so some are just a way to basically get you off track, to focus on this versus what you need to focus on.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 45:32

Remember when the disciples were in the boat and instead of focusing on Jesus, they were looking at the turmoil that was going on around them, and so, as a result of that, they began to sink. And so that is, that is a reminder for me that I need to keep my eyes on God, not on the people that are attacking me, not on their devices, not on, you know, the, the, the strategies or the tactics that they're using and just basically ignore it. And so you know, because, essentially, the, the, the goal here is to dilute my focus, to feed doubt and to block intimacy with God. Right, Um, the. The goal here is for me to um, make an idol out of my problem, make an idol out of my situation, to make my problem a God, right, but we know that God is bigger than any problem and that we serve El Shaddai, the God who is more than enough, the God who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we can ask or think. And so my focus is on God, and you know I just pray that God will always remind me, you know, when I seem to be shifting focus or allowing these things to distract me, um, to basically realign my focus.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 46:58

And it's it's, it's simple. Like you know, sometimes the enemy, when they can't get to you, they try to distract you, right? So now, you get distracted, you make under pressure, you become frantic and you make a wrong decision, or you act out of character, you become angry, and so forth. And so we know that the enemy goes around like a roaring lion, seeking who he may devour by any means necessary the by any means necessary, obviously, I inserted it that that's not part of the scripture, but I'm paraphrasing here, right. And so the goal of the enemy is basically to distract you, get you to, um, you know, uh, step out of character. And we see this in Psalms 37, verse one to two, um, where God says fret not yourself because of evildoers, for they shall soon be cut down like the grass Right. And so God also talks about not to.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 48:03

You know, god tells us not to be angry and don't allow the enemy to provoke us, because then, you know, it's going to cause us to sin. So the goal of the enemy is to provoke us into sin, retaliation, bitterness, or pride, or pride. And so, um, oftentimes, um, if I'm fasting or an intense prayer, I can always see that the tactics of the enemy will intensify. They, they, they just, they hate, they hate when I pray, they hate it, they hate it. They can't stand when I pray Um, so um I I also.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 48:43

That also is an indication that God is calling me to prayer ministry too. Um, because they, they hate, they hate me praying, they hate it when I pray, um, I, I don't know. I don't have the full picture of what God is calling me to do, but you know, I definitely know that God has a calling on my life and you know, I definitely know that God has a calling on my life and you know, I'm definitely taking it one step at a time, day by day, and you know, by coming here, sharing my story, sharing my experiences with, with everyone. So, again, the temptation to step out of character is another tactic, um that the enemy uses, and you know, basically, they want you to misrepresent yourself or your calling, and um, staying in character is part of the spiritual warfare.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 49:38

We know that when we talk about the fruits of the spirit, the fruits of the Holy Spirit, one of the fruits is temperance, and so God has given us temperance, and so sometimes we don't see the manifestation of a fruit or some fruits, or all of the fruits of the spirit, and so we have to ask God to stir up those fruits that is in us, right, because God has given us everything, he has placed everything in us before the foundation of this world. So it's in us, we have it, we just have to stir it up. We have to stir it up and we have to work our out our salvation daily. And so, you know, that is also a prayer for me, that God may stir up my temperance and any spiritual blessing or fruit of the spirit that I'm not fully using May God stir it up in me and may God stir up integrity as it becomes my armor against all of these attacks. So what I wanted to say, the last portion of this, is how opposition is as a mirror of someone's calling. So the more intense the warfare is, the more intense or the higher the weight of someone's assignment or calling is. So the threefold opposition mirrors, you know, my potentially, my threefold design spirit, soul and body, and also the calling that God has for me. I believe that and that does not make me narcissistic, ladies and gentlemen, it's just. You know, god gives you discernment, god gives you conviction about things.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 51:48

Like I said, I was never someone that wanted to be in the public eye or to become a public figure. I'm very reserved. I wasn't trying to be a spiritual, definitely not like some spiritual leader, spiritual figure, and I don't think that I am right now. I'm still going through my process but I believe that my process, my experiences, can definitely touch someone. Just me coming on here and sharing it can touch someone, either someone that has gone through something similar or that has gone through um potentially the exact same thing. I don't know. I haven't seen um any examples of someone that's gone through the exact same thing, but maybe maybe similar. Maybe it can encourage them.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 52:42

And um, I mean, christ did not come for perfect people, um, he came for the broken. He came to save the broken, the broken hearted. He came to save the sick, um, and so oftentimes we'll see um, whether it be a church or um, you know uh, a spiritual leader, or even um your your spiritual uh influencers online? Um, they often paint themselves as well. You know um, well, I'm not in sin and therefore God is going to bless me. Or I'm not in sin and therefore this, that and the third. I'm not in sin and therefore, um, I don't have any spiritual attacks.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 53:33

And that's not true, because it's not by works that any man should boast. So there is nothing that you could do to deserve God's mercy and grace. We are all filthy rags before God. We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. And God also says nothing can separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus, which is in Christ Jesus, whether it be sin, scandal, um, whatever it may be, nothing can separate us from God. Nothing, right? God is a restorer, he's a redeemer. He came to redeem us, he came to deliver us, and so that's what I want this platform to be Not only a platform where I can share my experiences, but where it can be an outlet for those that are broken, those that are hurt, those that are going through different attacks.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 54:37

Maybe it's not the same kind of attack that I'm facing, but just to know that God is here. God is not judging you because you made a mistake. God is not judging you because you're not a quote unquote perfect Christian that lives a sinless life. No, god loves the backslider right. We um in the parable that God left the 99 to go and to go after the one Right. So that's the kind of shepherd that we have, right? He doesn't will that anyone should be lost. That is not God's will, um, and so, uh, you know that is. Uh, that is the end of this segment. Um, I think, um, just to kind of close this out, um, the response to the threefold attacks that I mentioned earlier, which was spiritual, technological and human or carnal attacks, is to basically discern, detach and declare. So, basically, what you're doing here when you're discerning, detaching and declaring, you're discerning what's divine versus what's distracting, you're detaching from anything that doesn't serve your assignment and you're declaring your focus and authority.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 56:05

Daily, right, we have to work out our salvation, daily, certain things, some people might say well, man, she prays too much. She prays too much. She prays every day. Do you wake up, do you eat every day? You know, do you? The word of God and the prayer that God has preserved, uh, prescribed to us, says give us, lord, our daily bread. Right, so our daily bread is definitely not just the food that we eat, it is the word of God, it is communion with God, it is prayer, uh, you know, to God and with God, it is um, praising God, honoring him. So, um, it's part of maintenance, right, um, sometimes, we, we pray to get to a certain point, but it's also part of maintenance.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 56:54

If you go to the gym, right and um, you, you're, you may not see, most likely you're not going to see results on the first day. You have to kind of stick to your workout, um, to your regimen, to whatever it is that you're doing, so that you can start to see results. And then all um, ultimately, you're going to see results. But what happens if you stop working out and you stop doing what you did to see the results that you were seeking? Guess what? Most likely you're going to end up back in the shape that you were in before.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 57:31

So, ladies and gentlemen, um, we, we can never pray too much. We can never pray too much. Um, I think you know, yes, yes, there's a, there's a point that you pray and you surrender and you give it to god, but, um, I don't think we can pray too much. The enemy is constantly attacking, right, the enemy is always looking for an opening. So the more we pray, the better. I, I think, um, you know, those that are saying, um, you know, are trying to spin the narrative of praying too much is also a distraction or something to deter you from doing what you need to do as a christian. And, ladies and gentlemen, I can feel, I can feel the waves. I can feel the waves, I can feel the EMF waves. This is, this is what I have to deal with, those trying to obstruct the progress of the destined state. But oh to God, be the glory God. Thank you, lord.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 58:40

Um, I also will be sharing a few, a few excerpts from just kind of like short recordings. One is, I believe, like five minutes. Another is like oh, I just need to um, you know, I need to uh record this. So it was just basically an audio diary of what I was experiencing and me recording. Um, you know what was happening at that moment, so I'll also insert that into um this episode, so you can kind of um have it to, to, to listen to when, to kind of see what I'm going through. But you know, thanks again for listening. Um, this is The Dire-Rie of a Sane Black Woman with Marie. Thank you, see you in the next episode. Hi, this is audio one. Um, this is my audio diary. Um is just a bonus track for this episode, a reflection on how I was feeling a couple of days ago. I decided to record it as opposed to writing it in my physical diary. So, listen, I want to talk about the obstruction of the progress of the destined state.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:00:13

Lord, have mercy. Imagine being cyber stalked, harasseded right Online, in person, on the street, wherever you go, at work, in church, everywhere, in your home, when you sleep. But the thing of it is, it's not only a digital attack, it is it's not only a digital attack. We have to look at the bigger picture, the spiritual aspect. It's a spiritual attack. It's a spiritual attack that has manifested into a digital attack. And we also know at least Christians, we know that there's a term called the prince of the power of the air, and so that can also be related to technology, media and so forth. And so now the prince of the power of the air is attributed to the devil Um.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:01:22

And so now there's, like this technological attack right, um, through all these different means that you have. You have AI, you have um different um algorithms and different um large language models and scripts and things and tools that they use. I'm not a tech person so I'm not probably using the right terminology, but I'm just trying to express how I'm feeling right now Um. And then you have Python right, which is like some, uh, very powerful tool that they use Um and they can, you know, program it. They use it for programming and scripts and things of that nature. And you have that. And then, if we look in the spiritual realm, we have when we talk about um, the a Python spirit, or a constrictor spirit, a spirit that basically tries to um, suck the life out of you. And so that's basically what's happening to me digitally now, right, um, as a means to basically stop me from doing what God has for me to do, um to stop me from progressing. And so I'm saying all this to say um, and I will be going deeper into it.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:02:44

But every time I try to do something, even when I'm not doing anything, but specifically when I'm trying to do something, not only are people congregated outside of my house. I have one neighbor who's across from me. He opens the door. You can kind of see um, you know, sometimes his windows wide open, sometimes, like I'm wondering, like, is he actually recording me? Like inside my house? Like is he looking into my bathroom? Like there's been incidences that makes me wonder, like, are they filming me inside my bathroom, literally? Because, again, when we talk about subliminal gestures and and things that has happened, um, they're basically alluding to the fact that they can tell what I have in my bathroom or what's going on. And I mean I literally, um, not only have curtains, I have a towel in my, in my windows, basically just to make sure that it is as OPEC as possible.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:03:47

Um, that being said, there's the one that's above me, like literally, when I go online, like he's there, he's running up and down trying to figure out. Okay, I don't know if he has, like, certain devices and he's coordinating with somebody. He's on the phone. I'm trying to get somebody on the other line to help him to hack into my system and to see what I'm doing and to surveil me. So that's the technological aspect. And, look, I'm not exaggerating when we talk about EMF waves and everything, because imagine, all of these devices, it's not just my neighbors, but a neighboring houses, people that are driving by that are all basically trying to target my network. So, guess what? I'm going to feel the EMF waves. I'm going to feel the difference I can feel when there is like a lot of concentrated devices that are trying to trigger my devices.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:04:49

Um, that being said, then we have the spiritual aspect. Right, like, let's go back to the spiritual aspect Now. I want to be very careful in how I say this. I want to be very careful in how I say this, but I have to say it. Okay, um, I'm a Christian and this is not an attack on any other person's religion, but every time I'm on my computer I'm doing something that's important, whether it's um me on an important call, whether it's a call with tech support, if I'm trying to do something like record my podcast, set up my website or whatever.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:05:31

There's someone above me and they are very rhythmic with the footsteps that they're doing and I don't know if it's a type of ritual or if it's a type of cursing that they're doing, but they're like doing some with their feet and it's like, and I can hear it. And you know, they do this rhythmic thing up above, right above my head, and it's almost like I don't know if they're trying to curse me or they're trying to uh struck what I'm doing, but I bind it in Jesus's name and I also noticed that they always try to do it when I'm not, like if I'm not paying attention, like okay, I'm busy, or if I'm sleeping. They wake up in the middle of the night to do it and I can hear them doing it in like on top of my head and so, like I always try to basically immediately say, I rebuke it, I, you know, in the mighty name of Jesus, I, you know, return whatever they're trying to do back to sender and Jesus's name. But that's just the type of spiritual attacks that I'm basically faced with and that's just one example. Right, I'm just saying here, this is a lot bigger than it's not just digital. Let's just say that it's basically manifesting in a digital form, but it is spiritual as well, right, remember, in one of my episodes, I spoke about how a lot of the people that are acting or that are harassing me and things of that nature, to a certain extent I'm not gonna say every single person, but I feel like some people are basically influenced, they're under the influence, they're bewitched by some type of evil spirit or something like that to basically do what they're doing. And so not everyone has their blinders on, everyone is basically just following the crowd. No one has, um, you know, the decency to stand up and say wait a minute, this is wrong, we shouldn't be tapping into this person's network, we shouldn't be messing with this person's information. But, no, um, every single person, even in church. Okay, I'll, I'll get, I'll go into that church example. Um, well, actually it's happened to me a few times right With with so quote unquote church people that are supposed to be there to basically support you and things of that nature, but that's not the purpose of this recording. This is basically to go into the spiritual aspect, because, as I was basically minding my business, trying to, you know, work on my website, all I can hear is and it's like a squeaky sound, because they're doing it with their feet, I assume, and it's basically the person is above me and so, um, I can hear it and so it's. It's the floor squeaking and it's a rhythmic thing that they do with their feet, so it's some type of I don't know what it is. For all intents and purposes, I can only imagine that they're trying to do some type of hex or curse on me, because they always do it when I'm not like paying attention, or if I'm sleeping, that's when they try to do it In the middle of the night, at three o'clock in the morning, at four o'clock in the morning, when I'm sleeping, they wake up to do their, their nonsense. And so I'm here, I'm saying it here Like I, I know you can hear me, I know he can hear me. I know what you're doing and I rebuke it in Jesus's name. All right, let's just start with that.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:09:30

This is audio two. This is my digital slash audio diary. I was just reflecting and somewhat venting, and somewhat venting, you know, earlier this morning, and this is just kind of like the recording of how I was feeling at that moment. This is just an extra bonus track to this episode and I inserted it towards the end. I just want to say that the devil is busy. Woo Lord, I know that you have a purpose for me, because the way that the enemy is working to attack me, attack my devices, they can't even go to sleep. They are just monitoring me morning, noon and night. It's crazy. Monitoring me morning, noon and night, it's crazy. They're attacking my devices, causing my devices to crash Every time I'm working on my computer. You know this one above me is just basically running up and down with his devices, trying to intercept my connection.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:10:39

I pray that justice is served. I am praying. I know God is a just God. May his, may my justice, shine like the noonday sun. May every single person, especially the person above me, be apprehended by the law for intercepting my devices illegally. I'm praying for divine justice, but I'm also praying for the actual law, the book, the whole book, to be thrown at every perpetrator, especially the ones who deliberately attack me on a daily basis, morning, noon and night, those who cannot go to sleep.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:11:22

They're not only attacking me spiritually, trying to cast spells on me while I'm sleeping, but they're attacking my devices. They are harassing me sexually, harassing me subliminally, harassing me, using their children to harass me, you know, trespassing on my property. All these things is happening. So they're attacking me in the natural, carnally, spiritually and also technologically. I pray for divine justice. I pray for divine justice. I pray for divine justice in Jesus's mighty name.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:12:04

They also tried to crash my. I can't even like. They're trying to attack every single thing that I'm doing. But hallelujah God, you are. You are more than able. You are more more than able. You will come through, you will come through, you will come through, you will come through, you will come through, you will come through.

Marie Destinee a La Grandeur: 1:12:28

Let them continue to do this, because they're digging a deeper and a deeper and a deeper Trail for them to be caught. Instead of stopping, they're continuing. So let them dig deeper so that they can be caught and so that it won't be undenied so that it will be undeniable that they are involved and that they were being malicious. Thanks again for listening to The Dire-Rie of a Sane Black Woman and thank you for also hanging out to listen to my audio diaries. I think I'll be doing more of those where I just kind of record things as they're happening in the moment and just basically kind of bringing you into you know my actual experience, you know in real time. So, in any event, thanks again for listening. I will see you soon. I hope that you come back and that you share, like, share and spread the word about this docuseries. Bye.